The Feeling That Was Lost

Life itself is like a cocoon.

It takes you a lot of "push" in life till you get beautiful results,

Problem is it all still comes to an end one day.

I heard of a sad news of which one of a guy from my high school passes away and he was only 20 years old. I probably seen him before but, however i don't remember him though. RIP to him as I know that he is a great guy through his friends testimonials. Anyways, though i did not know him, yet when i received the news, i felt shocked, stunned, and my heart felt heavy. This feeling, "Is familiar" i said to myself. I felt this way before. It hit me that it is the exact feeling and emotions that i felt 2 1/2 years back in 2007. It is the feeling of losing someone you know and probably, very close to you.

I had not felt this way for a very long time since the day my friend, Sarah and Jin Swan prayed for me. But receiving such sudden news and all the scenarios - the FB comments on the deceased page, the FB page and event set up for him. Somehow relates to what i had gone through. It reminded me of that nostalgic feeling again. It is definitely NOT a feel good thing. Even though as friends only, it affects much, especially if it is your dearest friend that you share your inside out or even your undies with.

Yes, it is hard to accept at first and the day of the unfortunate incident is definitely going to remind of what has happened and is considered "the day not to be talked about". That feeling is unexplainable, it is easier to feel than to define, easier to understand than to recognize that emotion. Being caught up in life's circle, you sometimes tend to forget it. However, as the years go by, no doubt it will be reminded subconsciously from time to time.

It is a good feeling as it reminded me of you.

You will take time to think back of the smiles you shared,

The sorrows you cried over,

The stupidity you laughed through,

The hard-work you sowed together,

One of the greatest person in your life that you once had.

Why is it that we do not think of all these before, but,

We only start to acknowledge them when they are, not here anymore.

Hsieh June

Remembering You ..

We little knew that morning,
God was going to call your name,
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Tian Leng.

On 1st Feb 2010, you would have been 24 yrs old.

With sorrow in my heart I share the sad news that Tien Leng's father is critically sick. He is suffering from terminal liver cancer. He has never really got over the death of Tien Leng.

My heart goes out to his mother who has suffered quietly and bore the sorrows. She is the pillar of strength in the family. I pray the sisters S. May and S. June will emerge out of the trials to be stronger and more resilient like fine gold heated through fire. I praise God that Tien Leng's father has accepted Jesus Christ as his saviour and will meet Tien Leng in heaven in God's time.

Sa Khor

Closer

We're at Awana Genting. Brought June to visit your college. Still find it unbelievable how you could fall 3 floors down. June and I went to the restaurant you suggested to us last time. Damn bloody expensive :P

Dad and mom miss you very much too. Wish you were here with us. Why don't you come pay us a visit :") Brought them to Gotong Jaya for breakfast, but they didn't ask to see the site where you fell. I guess it's just too painful.

Your football team won big eh.

Love,
Hsieh May

happy 23rd b'day

Happy CNY n Happy birthday my fren. guess wat...im warded in hospital now wei... wat a way to celebrate cny...lol...okla..wana continue slpin...enjoy ur day nigga. 5:48am, 1st of Feb 2009.
ws.

Doaku Untuk Mu

Desir pasir di padang tandus segersang pemikiran hati terkisah ku di antara sahabat sejati. Ku cuba redakan relung hati bayangmu yang berlalu pergi terlukis di dalam kenangan. Bebas bermain di hatiku cerita tentang masa lalu cerita tentang kau dan aku kini tinggal hanya kenangan. Ku abadikan di dalam hatiku dan doaku untuk dirumu moga tenang disana. Terlalu cepat hari berlalu meninggal saban hari yang berlalu namun naluri tetap masih terkenang akan sahabat yang telah pergi berlalu. A friend is one of nicest things to have and one of nicest hings to be.walaupun kepergiaan sudah berlalu ia sukar untuk dilupakan kisah silam ketika berduka,gembira,sedih, dan marah. Segala memori yang terkisah tersimpan sebuah diari yang hanya menjadi ingatan masa silam. Walau kepergiaan hanya selama-lamanya namun segalanya masih teringat, moga aman bahgia disana..!

Ulangtahun lahir mu mendiang tian leng ku ucapkan agar rohmu sentiasa aman dan tenang. 1 Febuari adalah hari yang bermakna dan teristemewa buat sahabat ku mendiang tian leng ku doakan agar sentiasa dirahmati pada maha agung dan maha esa disana.

Setiap insan pasti merasa saat perpisahan terakhir di dunia yang fana ini.

Dari mohamad harris fasli bin ahmaD sri aman sarawak