Remembering You ..

We little knew that morning,
God was going to call your name,
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

The Space You Left Behind

I cried for you, sweet friend,

When I learned that you were gone,

The tears just kept on flowing,

For I don't know how long.



You must have known my heartache,

Though I was miles away,

But we'd touched hearts some time ago,

So I knew when you had left that day.



Friend, sister, buddy, cohort,

All of those, and more,

Tears we shared, and laughter, too,

Never ever were we bored.



Friends will come, and friends will go,

We say good-bye, and we move on,

But we're never quite the same again,

For a part of us has gone.



A heart is a symbol of love,

It is made in one piece and whole,

It grows fuller through the years,

With every friend we know.



But then when friends begin to leave,

And one by one, they disappear,

Leaner, thinner our hearts grow,

And cracks and crevices appear.



So now you've gone, my friend,

And my heart's forever changed,

Nothing can restore it,

It will never be the same.



The space you left behind

Is wide and deep, dear friend,

No one else can ever fill it,

Nor will it ever mend.

I am Thankful

FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE or HE IS AT HOME,
NOT 'LEPAKING'.

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE

FOR A GARDEN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME .

FOR THE PARKING SPOT
I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION .

FOR MY HUGE UTILITIES BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I LIVED COMFORTABLY .

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH OR TEMPLE
WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.


Live well, Laugh often, & Love with all of your heart!

I Feel So Sad

i feel so sad...
i feel so weak...
i feel so hurt...
deep within..

five months it has been
yet i felt it was just yesterday
i have a scar in my heart
that forever will stay

tell me its not real
tell me its fake
tell me its a dream
that i'll soon awake

why did that happen?
why did he go??
how can he leave us???
here all alone..

i pray for you to stay
i pray for you to awake
i pray hard day and night
but it seems its all fake!

it feels like i've lost all hopes
i've lost all my dreams
i feel like giving up
cuz without you it all seems unmeaningful

i wanna see you again
feel your warmth,kiss your face
i wanna hug you again,
hear your voice all again

i'm afraid of being alone
for i'll cry like i do often
i don't wanna weep no more
but it seems i can't

Forever i'll be sad
Forever you'll be gone
even if Forever i wish
you'll never come back...

i'll try to be happy..
i'll try to accept ther fact..
but to achieve that..
i hope your guidance to help..

June

Between Heaven & Earth

"Have you ever wondered what marks our timing? If one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? Sometimes in order to move forward, you have to go back. In this case, just a few minutes."

"Do you ever wonder how long it takes to change your life? What measure of time is enough to be life altering? Is it four years like high school? One year? An eight week rock tour? Can your life change in a month, or a week, or a single day? We're always in a hurry to grow up, to go places, to get ahead. And when you're young, one hour can change everything."

"If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back."

One moment of judgement, that separates between heaven and earth.

- Quotes taken from One Tree Hill (S04E13 - Pictures of You / S04E14 - Sad Songs for Dirty Lovers /S04E10 - Songs to Love & Die By) -

In Our Hearts

In Our Hearts

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.

~author unknown~

4 Bottles in Your Life

Tiada Yang Abadi

I guess this is the song that would best describe all those who know Tian Leng feel now.

(I)
Bila malam datang menjelang
Terasa berat menyesakkan jiwa
Hangat bertemankan rembulan
Sendiri bertahan ....

Tiada seindah waktu itu
Kala dunia penuh dengan tawa
Tak pernah terlintas padaku
Begini akhirnya ....

Reff :
Sepi sendiri di sini
Semua telah sirna
Hanya sekejap saja
Tiada yang akan abadi
Hanya menanti sang surya
Bersinar kembali

Back to : (I), Reff

Hangat bertemankan rembulan
Sendiri bertahan

Back to : Reff


Gary

Jack

Our lives are just like a written book
It has a beginning and an ending
However not all endings are the same
It can be a happy-ever-after or a tragic disaster...

On the 2nd he was born
In the spring of February in 1986
In a place called Seremban
Khoo Tian Leng he was named

How cute he was you should have saw
With That cheeky smile he has all along
Together with his mischievous attitude
He can make us laugh all day long

He was into all sorts of animals ranging from mammals to cold blooded
He also loved to fish and would find fishes everywhere even in the drains
His first interest in sports was cycling
He would cycle all around town in any weather in may be

At first he was very fat
Then somehow he started to lose weight
Into body building he was very keen
A new look he had,girls too started falling for him

He had couple of relationships but it didn’t work out well
But then a girl had him go head-over-heels
It was obvious that he was in love
Promised each other to be together forever

He transferred from Subang to Inti
Along the way great friends he met
Following the crowd affects him to change
But he is still genuine and not fake

He calls himself Jack as in of all trades?
KuKuLengLeng another name so original and unique
“Nigga” is what he is used to call his friends and adds it with a slang
Don’t you feel strange when you don’t hear that anymore?

He would always come home to Pd during weekends
To see his beloved family and friends
He would play football and badminton and even fishing
Spending time with family is also his main thing

On Sunday’s he afternoon before he leaves
He would pack his bag and from the shop he grab some things
He would say bye to us with that smile on his face
But we didn’t expect that time to be Goodbye forever

He was suppose to come back on the Friday
But he had an event to attend
He was all dressed up looking so smart
But what happened next was out of our expectations.

We got a call in the early hours of twelve
It seems that He had a fall from the third floor
It was devastating seeing him there
As we look at him,Tears started pouring

It seems that all hopes are lost
There was nothing we can do but pray
it was all in God’s hands....
it was time.....we let go....

Why didn’t he just wait?
Why did he climbed?
Why does this happen?
Why didn’t God save him?

We have so many questions in mind
But we don’t have the answer
We’re searching for the answer
But it is not there

People say things happen for a reason
Its the cycle of life
We know that we’re gonna die someday
But as for tian leng,we didn’t expect it to happen so soon

Everything he does is already like a routine to us
We know what he is about to do,We know what he is about to say
But now...
It feels awkward waiting for something you think that will happen but it isn’t

Its hard to let go...
Its hard to move on...
Its hard to face the fact...
That he is gone

But this is reality,We must go on with our lives
We must be strong and live life to the fullest
Because
Its what Tian Leng wants us to be..


june

Boston

Jack, I remember i kept playing this song last time when I was back. When you were in my car, i think u listened to it 100000 times already. Haha after reading jun's post, only I know that u actually liked it too. Good times :>




In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

Love,

Kwek

You Coloured the Sky :)

Dear Tian Leng,

I wish u well up there. I knew you painted it so soothingly beautiful. I know you were the one who answered Prema with a shooting star. We miss your presence, but we all know ur around us, always.

I know u coloured the skies too :)




There's traffic in the sky
and it doesn't seem to be getting much better
There's kids playing games on the pavement
Drawing waves on the pavement
mm hm
Shadows of the planes on the pavement
mm hm
It's enough to make me cry
But that don't seem like it could make it feel better
Maybe it's a dream and if I scream
it will burst at the seams and
this whole place will fall into pieces
and then they'd say...

Well how could we have known?
I'll tell them it's not so hard to tell
na na na
if you keep adding stones
soon the water will be lost in the well
mm hm

Puzzle pieces in the ground
but no one ever seems to be digging
Instead they're looking up towards the heavens
with their eyes on the heavens
mm hm
the shadows on the way to the heavens
mm hm
It's enough to make me cry
but that don't seem like it would make it feel better
The answers could be found
we could learn from digging down
but no one ever seems to be digging
instead they'll say...

Well how could we have known?
I'll tell them it's not so hard to tell
na na na
if you keep adding stones
soon the water will be lost in the well
mm hmmm

Words of wisdom all around
but no one ever seems to listen
They talk about their plans on the paper
Building up from the pavement
mm hm
there're shadows from the scrapers on the pavement
mm hm
It's enough to make me sigh
but that don't seem like it would make it feel better
The words are all around
but the words are only sounds
and no one ever seems to listen
Instead they'll say...

Well how could we have known?
I'll tell them it's really not so hard to tell
na na na
If you keep adding stones
soon the water will be lost in the well
lost in the well
mm mm mm

- Jack Johnson - Traffic in they Sky -

this song reminds me of you so much

love,
kwek

Dear tian leng

Ten days have gone by.. I wonder how are you doing over there? I still have dreams of riding with you on our mountain bikes Tian Leng, hope you havent forgotten our deal? When I look back at the testis written for you and the pictures posted on this page, I am really proud of you dawg. You're officially a legend. Who lives on forever.

I dedicate this song to you tian leng. And I want you to know, that no matter what happens in the future, you'll always be my best mate, and I know you're living forever in our hearts.


Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say, life is too short,
The here and the now
And youre only given one shot
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that weve got?

If I die tomorrow
Id be allright
Because I believe
That after were gone
The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
Im not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

If I die tomorrow
Id be allright
Because I believe
That after were gone
The spirit carries on

Move on, be brave
Dont weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear

Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victorias real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that Im here
Its perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrow
Id be allright
Because I believe
That after were gone
The spirit carries on

Tian Leng,
You are once again surrounded by a brilliant white light. allow the light to lead you away from your past and into this lifetime. as the light dissipates you will slowly fade back into con
Sness remembering all you have learned. when I tell you to open your eyes you will return to the present, feeling peaceful and refreshed. open your eyes, my friend.

Love,

Kwek

Remember How We Used to Laugh to This?

i remember how u laughed when the #@#$#@$%$# part came.
when i listen to this song, it's like ur there..next to me.

The Illusive Dream

Tian Leng's fav song at Youth Fellowship, which is also the theme song during the memorial service.



Where might you be going this fine day my friend?
Off along an aimless road that soon must end
Chasing an illusive dream that shines so fair
But when found isn't there.


I can understand your weary sigh, my friend
There but for the grace of God go I, my friend
Come, and let Him lead you to your journey's end
Oh, come along and walk with him.


If without the Grace of God your life should end
And before the face of God you'd stand, my friend
What would your illusive dream avail you then?
So, come along and walk with Him.

Our Song

this is our song man...