Between Heaven & Earth

"Have you ever wondered what marks our timing? If one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? Sometimes in order to move forward, you have to go back. In this case, just a few minutes."

"Do you ever wonder how long it takes to change your life? What measure of time is enough to be life altering? Is it four years like high school? One year? An eight week rock tour? Can your life change in a month, or a week, or a single day? We're always in a hurry to grow up, to go places, to get ahead. And when you're young, one hour can change everything."

"If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back."

One moment of judgement, that separates between heaven and earth.

- Quotes taken from One Tree Hill (S04E13 - Pictures of You / S04E14 - Sad Songs for Dirty Lovers /S04E10 - Songs to Love & Die By) -

His Room

One can tell a lot about a person from looking at his room.

As some of you were asking - yes, his room, bicycle, gym/sports equipment, books, are kept tidy as they were before he left, except for his clothes and old magazines.

The dream about you

It was 4 a.m. when I woke up to find out that it was only a dream. Clearly to me it was as if Jack came back to life and we were catching up on every single thing he missed out on. It was like the television series Smallville when Chloe was shown to be burned in her own house (don't quite remember much about that).Anyhow Jack came back to college and somehow or rather I happen to be walking around the hostel area when I spotted that familiar face standing outside the room of M2, turned out to be that the whole lot of M15 his favorite room shifted into M2 for some reason. I was totally shocked that I stood there and did nothing till he turned around to get his water bottle filled at the water cooler just outside his room. With that his reaction changed when he saw me standing there doing nothing, he then asked me what the hell are you doing there just standing there aren't you going to approach me? I just froze there the same way I was when I saw him in hospital the first time. I then snapped out of it from just freezing there and said "hi" of all the words I said that. I couldn't believe I just said that. He smiled back at me and then called black out of his room to have a look at me and black told me that it was real he is here. Telling me that it was Tian Leng in front of me. The last thing I remembered I called out his name and only to realize that I was only dreaming. Even though its been 2 months plus since he left us all behind. And for me being 6,612 ++ kilometers away from our hometown, it still hasn't made me forget about Jack. You left me and many others clueless as of what happened but at least I do know that you are still around us no matter where we are......

Shaun.

Unbelievable

Truth is not easy to come by.

Especially when the "why" remains unanswered, many of us still can't rest in peace.

Some say "Just let go. It's all fated."

But "How" ... if "Why" is still left with so many question marks.

Tian Leng may had many flaws. But despite his many split personalities (he liked to act to make ppl laugh), he was also pretty much a predictable sort of guy. Close friends would know his character and read him like a book.

So high. The green-tiled rooftop slants downwards. Misty night, wet roof, no witnesses or witnesses who claimed they didn't see him or hear him step into THEIR room... Yet, the police at Genting has closed off the case as accident without any solid witnesses or questioning. Why didn't he just get the key from his room mate? What was the fight all about between the Indian students and the Disciplinary Master just before the incident?

The mystery of Khoo Tian Leng or the unbelievable truth?

- Hsieh May -

Happy CNY

Happy Chinese New Year to u man...1st time taking ang pow with out u by my side. 1st time stepping into ur hse with out u there entertainin us in the past as a great host. No more mahjong with u...no more gambling with u...but when i gamble...i keep callin u to come out but u didn't...tat's y lost money...lol...after reading other posts, i just feel like writtin some thing for u. Wanted to on ur b'day...but dono wat to say. After visiting ur hse...need to report to u d now.

I wasn't really sure whether to go visit ur family anot cuz ur sis told us not to during xmas...but after asking june june...ur mum planned with me abt it..usually it was u who come n tell us wat time n when. So when i reach the front gate...still feeling unsure abt all tis cuz it's only 2 months since u went away and i don wana do anything tat is gonna hurt ur family more but I do believe tat u would want us to come and make some noise at ur hse. Not long after settling down in the hall...ur dad brought a can of tiger n said " I know u need tis now". it sounds so familiar cuz u were the 1 tat usually says tat to me when i reach ur hse. guess the khoo family really can drink. ur mum said june june tried drinkin beer and she said it's nice. LOL...jack..how la...ur younger sis tasted alcohol liao.

Then i asked ur dad whether wana gamble anot...n strait he finds for cards but ur hse got no cards. then kok siang brought cards frm his car. me n ur dad started gamblin 1st...i lost 5 bucks then win it back from ur dad. ur dad really funny la. every year sure catch me n play some funny game then lose money to him 1. but it was fun. When prema n jun jun was in ur room...i went in too. Then ur mum came to me and talked abt u. Nothing has changed in ur room but ur family has wrapped up ur gym set n bicycle so tat it wont rust. When ur mum talked abt tat nite when u fell...she said tat if only u were sent in to a private rather than the stupid government hospital...she cant hold her tears anymore...thank god i still can hold it infront of her. If not jun jun n prema sure gonna join the big burst out in ur room. We talked abt u 24/7...we misses u 24/7. It's been 2 months n 8 days since u left us...but to me it's like u left us y'day. Every time i read tis blog...it gives me heartache and missis u more. Now i know tat u even brain washed ur mum abt youngsters lifestyle. Cuz she said tat i wont wake up till noon...so she agreed tat we come to the hse after 3. If u can hear me Jack...pls go visit ur parents in their dream k. They missed u dearly everyday n nite. Chinese New Year without Jack...very very boring. PD with out Jack...very quiet ever since. Life without u...sucks terribly.

Come visit me in my dream wei...don always lepak in ur genting room only.
happy CNY n Happy belated B'day. Listen to me n go visit ur parents k.
Ciao.

ur bro,
wai seng.

In Our Hearts

In Our Hearts

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.

~author unknown~

Gone but Not Forgotten

It’s already 2 months plus since jack left this world. Losing jack is like losing 10 friends or even more. Since he left, Pd is so quiet n we don’t even know what to do during the weekends. normally he would plan what to do during weekends such as go for movies,fishing,watch football,tani...what I admire about jack is he will bring prema and chiil wit us during the weekends because most of them once they have a girlfriend they would slowly avoid their friends n only be wit their girlfriend. Even when jack just started the relationship he never forget us in pd,every weekend without failing he will call us out if he comes back.1 thing for sure, if u need a favor from him he hardly say no, if he can help u he will try his best to help. Before 3rd of December 2008, I would rush back after my classes on Fridays to get back home, and sometimes meet jack at kl and go back to Pd together. but now I don’t really feel like going back pd I just don’t know y. whatever it is im proud that I had jack as great friend/brother/hengtai in my life n I don’t think anyone can replace him. No matter what life goes on and , I would like to achieve something for him and always pray that he is doing good up there and god will take good care of him.

Rajiv