Happy CNY

Happy Chinese New Year to u man...1st time taking ang pow with out u by my side. 1st time stepping into ur hse with out u there entertainin us in the past as a great host. No more mahjong with u...no more gambling with u...but when i gamble...i keep callin u to come out but u didn't...tat's y lost money...lol...after reading other posts, i just feel like writtin some thing for u. Wanted to on ur b'day...but dono wat to say. After visiting ur hse...need to report to u d now.

I wasn't really sure whether to go visit ur family anot cuz ur sis told us not to during xmas...but after asking june june...ur mum planned with me abt it..usually it was u who come n tell us wat time n when. So when i reach the front gate...still feeling unsure abt all tis cuz it's only 2 months since u went away and i don wana do anything tat is gonna hurt ur family more but I do believe tat u would want us to come and make some noise at ur hse. Not long after settling down in the hall...ur dad brought a can of tiger n said " I know u need tis now". it sounds so familiar cuz u were the 1 tat usually says tat to me when i reach ur hse. guess the khoo family really can drink. ur mum said june june tried drinkin beer and she said it's nice. LOL...jack..how la...ur younger sis tasted alcohol liao.

Then i asked ur dad whether wana gamble anot...n strait he finds for cards but ur hse got no cards. then kok siang brought cards frm his car. me n ur dad started gamblin 1st...i lost 5 bucks then win it back from ur dad. ur dad really funny la. every year sure catch me n play some funny game then lose money to him 1. but it was fun. When prema n jun jun was in ur room...i went in too. Then ur mum came to me and talked abt u. Nothing has changed in ur room but ur family has wrapped up ur gym set n bicycle so tat it wont rust. When ur mum talked abt tat nite when u fell...she said tat if only u were sent in to a private rather than the stupid government hospital...she cant hold her tears anymore...thank god i still can hold it infront of her. If not jun jun n prema sure gonna join the big burst out in ur room. We talked abt u 24/7...we misses u 24/7. It's been 2 months n 8 days since u left us...but to me it's like u left us y'day. Every time i read tis blog...it gives me heartache and missis u more. Now i know tat u even brain washed ur mum abt youngsters lifestyle. Cuz she said tat i wont wake up till noon...so she agreed tat we come to the hse after 3. If u can hear me Jack...pls go visit ur parents in their dream k. They missed u dearly everyday n nite. Chinese New Year without Jack...very very boring. PD with out Jack...very quiet ever since. Life without u...sucks terribly.

Come visit me in my dream wei...don always lepak in ur genting room only.
happy CNY n Happy belated B'day. Listen to me n go visit ur parents k.
Ciao.

ur bro,
wai seng.

In Our Hearts

In Our Hearts

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.

~author unknown~

Gone but Not Forgotten

It’s already 2 months plus since jack left this world. Losing jack is like losing 10 friends or even more. Since he left, Pd is so quiet n we don’t even know what to do during the weekends. normally he would plan what to do during weekends such as go for movies,fishing,watch football,tani...what I admire about jack is he will bring prema and chiil wit us during the weekends because most of them once they have a girlfriend they would slowly avoid their friends n only be wit their girlfriend. Even when jack just started the relationship he never forget us in pd,every weekend without failing he will call us out if he comes back.1 thing for sure, if u need a favor from him he hardly say no, if he can help u he will try his best to help. Before 3rd of December 2008, I would rush back after my classes on Fridays to get back home, and sometimes meet jack at kl and go back to Pd together. but now I don’t really feel like going back pd I just don’t know y. whatever it is im proud that I had jack as great friend/brother/hengtai in my life n I don’t think anyone can replace him. No matter what life goes on and , I would like to achieve something for him and always pray that he is doing good up there and god will take good care of him.

Rajiv

Life and Politics in Malaysia

Telephone call answered by the 3rd ring

15 minutes to renew your business license

2 hours to apply for a new passport

7 days payment made to 60% of contractors who had submitted their invoices

14 days the maximum amount of time before a contractor is paid after he has submitted his invoice

70% of backlog cases in land offices have been cleared since 2004

- "One Service, One Deliver, No Wrong Door" as announced by Chief Secretary Tan Sri Mohd Sidek Hassan [New Sunday Times, 3rd Feb 08] -

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On a separate issue:

1 - 2 hours for an ambulance to arrive.

2 police reports filed on a similar case before they realised there was a duplicate.

9 hours a critically injured patient was left in the "emergency ward" before he was prepped for surgery.

6,360km (3,432 nautical miles) the distance of a phone call made by someone from another country to another important someone at the hospital in order to get the doctors to take action.

7 hours for a police officer to arrive at mortuary. Less than 5 minutes to snap some pictures.

3 visits to the hospital before someone can tell you the right answer that to get medical records and doctor's statement, one needs to go to "Wisma Kayu".

60 days you'll have to wait to get the doctor's statement and signature on a "yes/no" and short answers 1-page form.

RM200 - RM1,000 you'll need to pay depending on "kerumitan kes" should you require the full medical record. (people don't need a new statement or modified record, just the existing medical records, how "rumit" can that be?!)

Min 60 days waiting period to get medical records.

13 police summonses before bus driver claimed three lives on a road accident.

- Voice of a frustrated Malaysian, and representing many more -

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Elsewhere in Malaysia:

There is still a chance to get away with corruption at the highest level in Malaysia even if you are caught on video with the now infamous quote by VK Lingam "it looks like me, sounds like me, the room matches the living room in my house, but I will not say 100% it is me."

Barisan National's big guns descended on Penang to hand out RM millions worth of goodies (in view of the coming general election). [The Star, 2nd Feb 08]

Malaysia's PM launched The Emperor's Clothes boutique belonging to daughter at Pavillion KL.

Health Minister got caught in a sex scandal.

The ironies of life and politics in Malaysia. Time to stand up, take action and be counted!

Happy Bday Brother

I've been back in malaysia for two weeks now..i still remember we planned to hang out a lot when i came back..u promised to hang out with me..sigh..malaysia isnt the same without you..subang isnt the same without you..Happy Birthday Khoo..

faisal

ur day..

Happy birthday Jack.

Kwek

My Chocolate Carousel

MY CHOCOLATE CAROUSEL
Chocolate cake....hhmmm...evrytime when it comes to this time..this day..of the year...we would have the heavenly chocolate cake..so devilicious that it melts in your mouth..you cant help but to take a bite of it when u see it. irresistible wei..however unfortunately..during this time of the year..we won’t be having that anymore..what am i talking bout?...

Well..its our dear beloved tian leng’s bday on the 1st of feb.and evrytime..we would have chocolate cake on this day..well..its cause its tian leng’s favourite cake.

**~Chocolate Cake~**

i thought of the past few years where our family, for sure are gonna have chocolate cake on every year on the 1st of Feb. miss the chocolate cake..but what is it compared to dear jack. it can be replaced and bought another day..on the other hand, Tian Leng..?its someone, a life that no one can replace. Ever...

There’s like this feeling inside of me...a prickly feeling.i feel like i’m still living in the past and not wanting to lose that feeling. The feeling that Tian Leng is still here. Everytime at home i always think of him..Thinking that he’s in college and he is coming back on weekends. Feeling that anxiety of him coming back....

Now every weekends i remember the days where he would come back in the evening..i was hoping for him to reach that front gate..knock on the door and call out my name..I keep imagining that image..That picture of him..That feeling that i always feel when he comes home..but it is so different now..i wait but he’s not coming. i try to hear but its fading. i try to feel but it’s not real.

Sometimes i even force myself to think that what I saw last time was not real. That it wasn’t Tian Leng. Then is not him and that this is a terrible nightmare. a nightmare that i will forget once i wake up and realise that it was all only a dream and it did not even happened. Then i realised..
“No June..It’s real...it had happened. u were in the hospital, u were there, and u saw him. It was him lying there, that was his blood, that was his face, his body, his hand. That was him and he’s gone.”
I tried to reject that fact. Thinking that it was all like in those drama movies but it wasn’t. This is reality.

When i was watching heroes the other day,i thought how nice it would be if i had superpowers.in that case i could turn stop time and go back into the past like hiro nakamuri?then i could save tian leng.or what if i could paint the future like Isaac mendez?then i could predict the future and stop tian Leng from that tragic fall. What if Tian Leng had the ability to fly like Nathan petrelli? Then he would have survived that fall. What if Tian Leng had Claire Bennett’s in the same case just like wolverine powers? He can heal himself and still be here having a time of his life.
But its all just movies and unreal dreams..

I made up a nickname for Tian Leng.its called Chocolate Carousel. I nicknamed him this caused he liked chocolate cakes a lot. Carousel is a place in the palace of the golden horses where he went for his intern. His friends said that that was his favourite place in that hotel where he feels calm and has peace in his heart. i thought it is a good combination. It sounds like a creamy chocolate cake with drizzles of syrup and white chocolate with a dash of flaky icing dust on top. Sounds elegant and heavenly to me. =)

I will keep you in my heart always loving you sincerely and missing you dearly! especially when I’m eating chocolate cake! ;p HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY KOH KOH!! I hope you are having a blast up there, bringing joy and laughter to the angels around you! last but not least...i dedicate this memory verse to you! Think that you did found the true meaning of love and i know that you are carrying it with you now.

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails." (I Corinthians 13:4-8).

With all hugz,kisses & love,
June ^,^

Mr Jack

I know jack's birthday is on yesterday. I wish him Happy Birthday and hope he will have a good peace in the sky. Besides that, we doesn't know very well to each other, but he is my senior in the Palace of the Golden Horses Hotel. He was from the Genting College and he same as me had a training in the hotel. He also had mentioned that he felt this Golden Horses was the Five stars hotel and great to training in here. On the other hand,he was a kind,willing to help,funny and many more. I am so happy to add him as a friend and he also would shared his experience with me. This is because I was afraid to training in this hotel. I not always saw him during working or after work. Suddenly, after I finished to attend my convocation at JW Marriott Hotel. The next day I heard a bad news from my friend,Haris. He send me a message to inform me that he already passed away. First, I was shocked and I can't believed this was true. I asked my friend check properly and then sms back to me. At 10.30pm, Haris sms me and said that this new was true. Ay this moment, I can't accept this truth that Khoo was passed away on last year. So,in the end I also need to accepted the truth. Anyway, I hope his family don't felt upset and hope also Khoo can went in peace. Last but not least, I just want to said thank you to Khoo share his experience to me.

Lim Seu Kee

for all whom he loved and loved him...he is still with you

was jack's birthday ystdy. i nvr felt more sense of loss than i did ystdy thinking hw it would hv been if he was still around wit his best buddies organising some birthday party n me finding out about all de hillarious tactics dat they did once they were sloshed. i am away from home..so far away from where i wished i was on de 1st of Feb when the clock striked 12. i actually planned to drink for him but i fell sick a few hours earlier. it reminded me of when i went to the hospital to see him after the fall..i fell sick then n was stil recovering when i fell sick again the day before his birthday..i wanted so badly to be back home and to go to the beach..bt since i couldnt, i went to the lake near my housing area in

kampar and just thought of him dat nite..i felt the pain and i felt the loss..til today when i look at his pictures, read this blog or just think about him and all the ppl in his life who hold him so dear, i find myself thinking of how unreal it felt that he was gone..suddenly i feel so detached..like im living in a dream...cause living in that dream is much more better than to admit to myself that he really is gone..that he wont be cmg back..you see if i was dreaming, i would wake up sooner or later, n he'll still be there..and no one would be suffering inside n there wouldnt be any pain. he would be smiling that smile, n his jeep would drive me crazy n id stil want 2 kill his dogs..his sister wouldnt hv lost their brother, prema would stil be with the man she loves, wai seng and kwek wouldnt hv lost their brother, valentino fc would still hv their left winger, de 6 jahanam would hv remained de 6 jahanam..and we wouldnt hv lost a great soul, n i would stil make fun of him about all de nonsense he used to do while i was his neighbour...

moving on is still hard to do bt time does not seem to want to stop just for a little while..everything has change bt there is one thing we can do 4 him..n dat is to celebrate his life here on earth regardless of how short it was cause he has made such a great impact no matter hw small or big in de lives of everyone he has evr met...all i can say is dat let us live our lives as he did and make him proud..keep him in our hearts..let him live through us..n we shall keep his memory and his spirit alive..

happy birthday mr...i hope you had a kick ass party up there...we all miss you badly...oh and another thing..if you happen to bump into heath ledger up there, say hello to him for me k...take care of yourself mr..check in on the others from time to time...dun play to many pranks k...

it was wonderful being your schoolmate, neighbour and friend..thank you for all the memories..

caroline

1st february special day

Apapun yang terjadi, berjalan tanpa henti,airmata yang tertahan,waktu untuk dijatuhkan, nanti kita kan tahu, betapa bijaknya hidup, sepahit apa pun inbi, pelajaran yang bererti, semoga kepegiaanmu, tak akan merubah apapun,semoga mampu ku lawan kesepiaanku.......(song by Datin Sri Siti Nurhaliza-Melawan kesepian). 1st febuary adalah hari yang bahgia....Embun dipagi buta,menebarkan bau basah,detik demi detik ku hitung namun dihati tabah akan kepergiannya.Hampir 2 bulan mendiang khoo tian leng meninggalkan kita.namun dihati tetap sedih akan kepergiaanya.Siang berganti malam...malam berganti siang....hujan....petir.....panas...mendung...adalah kewujudan di dunia.Sedih dihati tiada siapa yang akan megerti.Hanya berbaurkan kesedihan yang amat menusuk dihati.1st febuary is a special date bagi mendiang khoo ian leng.Tarikh tersebut adalah hari yang bermakna bagi dirinya.Tahun berganti tahun pasti mendiang khoo tian leng menunggu saat yang amat bermakna bagi dirinya.1st febuary akan menjelma dengan hari yang trpenting bagi dirinya.Ia adalah hari ulang tahun lahir mendiang Khoo tian leng .walaupun tahun 2008 tiada kesampaian hanya ku sampaikan doa agar roh mendiang Khoo Tian Leng aman tenteram.Entahlah mengapa Kepergiaan mendiang Khoo Tian leng tidak dapat dilupakan.Bila ke wangsa maju teringat akan mendiang...kerana disitu lah satu-satu nya tempat membawa hati yang tenang.Seakan-akan bayang-bayang nya megekori.Andainya masa dapat diputarkan pasti ku ulangkan masa yang menceriakan bersama mendiang Khoo Tiang Leng.Tidak semudah itu untuk melupakan seseorang yang terlalu banyak berbakti.Jasa dan budi mendiang Khoo Tian Leng pasti ku kenang hingga ke akhir hayat.Kenakalan mendiang khoo Tian Leng bermain diminda.Teringat waktu bergurau senda sehingga mengeluarkan air mata.Kenakalan,funny,rajin,cergas adalah keperibadiaan mendiang Khoo Tian Leng.Keperibadiaan mendiang Khoo Tiang Leng amat sempurna.Tiada hari yang membosankan mendiang Khoo Tian Leng.Bagi diri mendiang adalah menceriakan dengan senyuman yang manis dan ikhlas.Dimana....Kemana.....Disitu....Disini.....Kesana....kemari....satu imbuhan yang tiada noktahnya!.....namun kini nokhtah terhenti dengan begitu sahaja.Kepergiaannya amat menyedihkan walaupun hampir 2 bulan akan kepergiaanya.Air yang tenang begitu jernihnya sekali...Air dilaut berombak dengan alunnya menghayutkan segala kenangan manis bersama mendiang Khoo Tian Leng .segala kenangan manis bersama mendiang Khoo Tian Leng menjadi memori yang terindah.Kenangan terindah.....pahatkan didalam hati agar segalanya menjadi satu memori yang terindah.ku menyaksikan dedaun kekeringan....gugur ke bumi.....kesan tiada penyeri.....kepergiaanmu Khoo tiang leng tak akan kuleraikan sepanjang persahabatan.Ku menadah tangan dan terus berdoa agar dirimu disana tenteram dengan amannya....! 1st febuary 2008 adalah ulangtahun mendiang Khoo Tian Leng yang Ke-22.hanya.....doa mampu ku hadiahkan......

dari sahabat mu ( MOHAMAD HARRIS FASLI-SRI AMAN SARAWAK)..................