Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Tian Leng.

On 1st Feb 2010, you would have been 24 yrs old.

Closer

We're at Awana Genting. Brought June to visit your college. Still find it unbelievable how you could fall 3 floors down. June and I went to the restaurant you suggested to us last time. Damn bloody expensive :P

Dad and mom miss you very much too. Wish you were here with us. Why don't you come pay us a visit :") Brought them to Gotong Jaya for breakfast, but they didn't ask to see the site where you fell. I guess it's just too painful.

Your football team won big eh.

Love,
Hsieh May

happy 23rd b'day

Happy CNY n Happy birthday my fren. guess wat...im warded in hospital now wei... wat a way to celebrate cny...lol...okla..wana continue slpin...enjoy ur day nigga. 5:48am, 1st of Feb 2009.
ws.

jack

i didn't want to write anything bout you jack. didn't want to write anymore. but i fail. i miss you man. honestly, time didnt heal nothing much really. you've been on my mind almost everyday dawg. b4 i sleep, when i wake up all i can think bout are those times back then dude. erm.. but i think its for the better. u sacrificed urself to wake us up from a beautiful messy dream. i feel rajiv, every word was written so perfectly.

been a year dawg. hope all is well.

kwek

1st year anniversary... of our dearest tian leng

As all of you should remember, today marks the very day oue dear Khoo Tian Leng's departure, living us after a tragic fall which took place in Genting. For most of us today brings back lots of memory, good and bad. As for me, i still remember the day he left me, so sudden, that i felt numb at first, then only i cried my lungs out. For me generally, is the day where, i am left all alone and has no one to always support me, no matter wat the matter was.

Today i would like to tell him the latest changes i made in my life, after his departure.
I rejected my offer to Puchong, and i am permanently staying in seremban, as i think im gonna make it my new home. I found a beautiful new house, and im renting it.... the only problem is that, im financially not doing very well. im hoping that in order to start my life fresh, i must get my financial state to a more stable state. I tot of doing a part time job, but i just don know wat can i offer, or do for now.

I did pray to the Lord, to ask him for guidance, and like i always do, i talk to u. cause i know that u r the nearest thing to God that i know. Dearest darling pls pray for me, as i am in great despair, and i need ur help, guidance and ur support like i always did before u left me. I do hope all goes well for me... and also not forgetting, your family.

My family on the other hand is doing quite fine, my mum opened her dance center again, hpe she succeeds. My dad asked for a transfer to PD, and i think it was granted, Priyanka....as usual... busy with Skul and yup...BOYS!!!!! Prakash... has no change, pretty much the same. Pls help him open his eyes and to be better... and EMPLOYED!!

I also pray that ur family is doing well, as it is harder on them rather than me or my family, don leave them by themselves and always help them, guide them. Show them ur love for them, and always let them feel your warm presence in their hearts. keep them strong.

Your frenz, don worry ur best friend or foe??? i don know... but all i know is WaiSeng is trying so hard to keep the group together, help him yeah??? He misses u alot too... he stays with me and my family when he is in pd. We, meaning some of ur frens and i still try to hang out and keep in touch when we can.

WE miss u lots... and just wanna say.. we love u still!! muaxs... hugs...

Prema

Life is not a Matter of Milestones but of Moments

After 365 days, the pain of losing someone dear feels strangely raw. As quoted by Rose Kennedy, “It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds’. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens, but it is never gone.”

I started drafting this post a month ago, but time and time again, I can never find the right words. I guess, all that needed to be said had already been said.

So, here’s a tribute to you, my brother.

A project that transpired from his passing, Décorateur is officially launched on 3rd December 2008. With a tagline, “Creativity is My Lifestyle”, the weekly-updated blogazine is the first of its kind in Asia with the objective to inspire beautiful living and encourage the celebration of life events (I believe it is the first of such objective in Asia after doing my research, correct me if I'm wrong). In short, it's really all about living out your life to the fullest and the celebration of moments.

It started as a tiny idea to create a personal 'beautiful living' blog. However, after putting in much thoughts and sleepless nights of brainstorming, one idea led to another and eventually, that little idea turned into a BLOGAZINE!!!! It is not meant to be a large entertainment site funded by huge investors or large corporations but in plain words, a labour of love. It'll contain a combination of both blog-style writing and informative article-style write ups from me and other wonderful contributors and bloggers.

Thank you for 'colouring' & touching our lives in more ways that you could have ever known.

Rest in peace.

“If I had my life to live over, I’d dare to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax; I’d limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones. You see, I’m one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dance; I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.” - Nadine Stair -

"Let us so live that when we die even the undertaker will be sorry." - Mark Twain -

a superb dream and experience.... was it a dream???

there was a night where i had a hard time to fall asleep... i had so many things on my mind... i was not calm and was totally a wreck!! i was nearly going insane... i cried out to tian leng... asking him to comfort me... and talk to me...

when i was finally asleep.... i suddenly felt a warmth... a feeling i know and felt before...
i recognise the smell and the love.... i then turned around to see him hugging me tightly from behind... he held me so close and was kissing me at my ear and he whispered " darling, im always here, call me when u need me... i'll be there for you"

i cried and cried, and never felt so relieved and happy.... i smiled and kissed him and said thanx my darling,.... i miss u so much.... and i really appreciate you being there for me... like u promised,,,,, when you messaged me a year ago,,,,,

" when i have so much on my mind, i hug u and it disappears.... one day i hope i can do the same.... ".

im so glad u kept that promise eventhough u have departed...
im happy to have you around me...
if only u know wat im going thru right now.... i know u'll be all out to help me out ... everyway possible.... but all i want is to be able to feel that touch again... the touch of warmth and love i felt the other night. when i am in your arms i feel so secure... i feel that there is nothing that is able to harm me,,,, i miss you my dearest darling.....
thanks for telling and showing me that u are hearing my prayers... and that you are guiding me from above...

i guess your frenz were right ... u really did take me as your gal... i only wanna say... that u were my world... and if given the chance .... i'll make sure u know how i felt bout you..
at times i wonder was it a dream?? or did u really just come and comfort me... and then went back to your new home.... in the heavens above,,,

dearest darling, in a few days... it will be a year.. but i feel you and think of you like you are still here.... not that i want it to fade away... i pray that it will never fade away... as u were and still are the best gift i ever had!! i really missed the days we spent and the crazy things we did together.... i miss you ... the reason why i smile and laugh...
thinking of u at times makes me tear... but most of the time i have a smile... thinking of the great times we had...

thanks for loving me so much dearest darling..... muaxx....

You've got Mail

I was so busy I almost forgot to post this until Wai Seng texted me the other day.


Few months back, I posted about this freaky sms incident. It happened again last month. I received 3 new messages, 2 of them - 1 from my bride about setting appointment and another 1 was sms blast on some sales/promotion. The 3rd sms was from Tian Leng. I clicked on it, and then it dissappeared. Well, at least this time I had a witness so I know I'm not crazy.

So where is his phone & SIM card? Somewhere in the closet, totally out of battery and no credit.

Things are Never the Same Without You

Jack,

things are never the same without u around. ppl say time heals, i really want to believe that. but in this case, it's just not the same. every now and then when i come across people or things that remind me of you, i still hold on tightly to my self denial that you are still around. help me overcome my fear jack, help me overcome my denial. help me overcome my fears of returning home to malaysia. because i am still after all these months, not ready to face your departure.

i miss you.

kwek

His Room

One can tell a lot about a person from looking at his room.

As some of you were asking - yes, his room, bicycle, gym/sports equipment, books, are kept tidy as they were before he left, except for his clothes and old magazines.

The dream about you

It was 4 a.m. when I woke up to find out that it was only a dream. Clearly to me it was as if Jack came back to life and we were catching up on every single thing he missed out on. It was like the television series Smallville when Chloe was shown to be burned in her own house (don't quite remember much about that).Anyhow Jack came back to college and somehow or rather I happen to be walking around the hostel area when I spotted that familiar face standing outside the room of M2, turned out to be that the whole lot of M15 his favorite room shifted into M2 for some reason. I was totally shocked that I stood there and did nothing till he turned around to get his water bottle filled at the water cooler just outside his room. With that his reaction changed when he saw me standing there doing nothing, he then asked me what the hell are you doing there just standing there aren't you going to approach me? I just froze there the same way I was when I saw him in hospital the first time. I then snapped out of it from just freezing there and said "hi" of all the words I said that. I couldn't believe I just said that. He smiled back at me and then called black out of his room to have a look at me and black told me that it was real he is here. Telling me that it was Tian Leng in front of me. The last thing I remembered I called out his name and only to realize that I was only dreaming. Even though its been 2 months plus since he left us all behind. And for me being 6,612 ++ kilometers away from our hometown, it still hasn't made me forget about Jack. You left me and many others clueless as of what happened but at least I do know that you are still around us no matter where we are......

Shaun.

Unbelievable

Truth is not easy to come by.

Especially when the "why" remains unanswered, many of us still can't rest in peace.

Some say "Just let go. It's all fated."

But "How" ... if "Why" is still left with so many question marks.

Tian Leng may had many flaws. But despite his many split personalities (he liked to act to make ppl laugh), he was also pretty much a predictable sort of guy. Close friends would know his character and read him like a book.

So high. The green-tiled rooftop slants downwards. Misty night, wet roof, no witnesses or witnesses who claimed they didn't see him or hear him step into THEIR room... Yet, the police at Genting has closed off the case as accident without any solid witnesses or questioning. Why didn't he just get the key from his room mate? What was the fight all about between the Indian students and the Disciplinary Master just before the incident?

The mystery of Khoo Tian Leng or the unbelievable truth?

- Hsieh May -

Happy CNY

Happy Chinese New Year to u man...1st time taking ang pow with out u by my side. 1st time stepping into ur hse with out u there entertainin us in the past as a great host. No more mahjong with u...no more gambling with u...but when i gamble...i keep callin u to come out but u didn't...tat's y lost money...lol...after reading other posts, i just feel like writtin some thing for u. Wanted to on ur b'day...but dono wat to say. After visiting ur hse...need to report to u d now.

I wasn't really sure whether to go visit ur family anot cuz ur sis told us not to during xmas...but after asking june june...ur mum planned with me abt it..usually it was u who come n tell us wat time n when. So when i reach the front gate...still feeling unsure abt all tis cuz it's only 2 months since u went away and i don wana do anything tat is gonna hurt ur family more but I do believe tat u would want us to come and make some noise at ur hse. Not long after settling down in the hall...ur dad brought a can of tiger n said " I know u need tis now". it sounds so familiar cuz u were the 1 tat usually says tat to me when i reach ur hse. guess the khoo family really can drink. ur mum said june june tried drinkin beer and she said it's nice. LOL...jack..how la...ur younger sis tasted alcohol liao.

Then i asked ur dad whether wana gamble anot...n strait he finds for cards but ur hse got no cards. then kok siang brought cards frm his car. me n ur dad started gamblin 1st...i lost 5 bucks then win it back from ur dad. ur dad really funny la. every year sure catch me n play some funny game then lose money to him 1. but it was fun. When prema n jun jun was in ur room...i went in too. Then ur mum came to me and talked abt u. Nothing has changed in ur room but ur family has wrapped up ur gym set n bicycle so tat it wont rust. When ur mum talked abt tat nite when u fell...she said tat if only u were sent in to a private rather than the stupid government hospital...she cant hold her tears anymore...thank god i still can hold it infront of her. If not jun jun n prema sure gonna join the big burst out in ur room. We talked abt u 24/7...we misses u 24/7. It's been 2 months n 8 days since u left us...but to me it's like u left us y'day. Every time i read tis blog...it gives me heartache and missis u more. Now i know tat u even brain washed ur mum abt youngsters lifestyle. Cuz she said tat i wont wake up till noon...so she agreed tat we come to the hse after 3. If u can hear me Jack...pls go visit ur parents in their dream k. They missed u dearly everyday n nite. Chinese New Year without Jack...very very boring. PD with out Jack...very quiet ever since. Life without u...sucks terribly.

Come visit me in my dream wei...don always lepak in ur genting room only.
happy CNY n Happy belated B'day. Listen to me n go visit ur parents k.
Ciao.

ur bro,
wai seng.

Gone but Not Forgotten

It’s already 2 months plus since jack left this world. Losing jack is like losing 10 friends or even more. Since he left, Pd is so quiet n we don’t even know what to do during the weekends. normally he would plan what to do during weekends such as go for movies,fishing,watch football,tani...what I admire about jack is he will bring prema and chiil wit us during the weekends because most of them once they have a girlfriend they would slowly avoid their friends n only be wit their girlfriend. Even when jack just started the relationship he never forget us in pd,every weekend without failing he will call us out if he comes back.1 thing for sure, if u need a favor from him he hardly say no, if he can help u he will try his best to help. Before 3rd of December 2008, I would rush back after my classes on Fridays to get back home, and sometimes meet jack at kl and go back to Pd together. but now I don’t really feel like going back pd I just don’t know y. whatever it is im proud that I had jack as great friend/brother/hengtai in my life n I don’t think anyone can replace him. No matter what life goes on and , I would like to achieve something for him and always pray that he is doing good up there and god will take good care of him.

Rajiv

Life and Politics in Malaysia

Telephone call answered by the 3rd ring

15 minutes to renew your business license

2 hours to apply for a new passport

7 days payment made to 60% of contractors who had submitted their invoices

14 days the maximum amount of time before a contractor is paid after he has submitted his invoice

70% of backlog cases in land offices have been cleared since 2004

- "One Service, One Deliver, No Wrong Door" as announced by Chief Secretary Tan Sri Mohd Sidek Hassan [New Sunday Times, 3rd Feb 08] -

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On a separate issue:

1 - 2 hours for an ambulance to arrive.

2 police reports filed on a similar case before they realised there was a duplicate.

9 hours a critically injured patient was left in the "emergency ward" before he was prepped for surgery.

6,360km (3,432 nautical miles) the distance of a phone call made by someone from another country to another important someone at the hospital in order to get the doctors to take action.

7 hours for a police officer to arrive at mortuary. Less than 5 minutes to snap some pictures.

3 visits to the hospital before someone can tell you the right answer that to get medical records and doctor's statement, one needs to go to "Wisma Kayu".

60 days you'll have to wait to get the doctor's statement and signature on a "yes/no" and short answers 1-page form.

RM200 - RM1,000 you'll need to pay depending on "kerumitan kes" should you require the full medical record. (people don't need a new statement or modified record, just the existing medical records, how "rumit" can that be?!)

Min 60 days waiting period to get medical records.

13 police summonses before bus driver claimed three lives on a road accident.

- Voice of a frustrated Malaysian, and representing many more -

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Elsewhere in Malaysia:

There is still a chance to get away with corruption at the highest level in Malaysia even if you are caught on video with the now infamous quote by VK Lingam "it looks like me, sounds like me, the room matches the living room in my house, but I will not say 100% it is me."

Barisan National's big guns descended on Penang to hand out RM millions worth of goodies (in view of the coming general election). [The Star, 2nd Feb 08]

Malaysia's PM launched The Emperor's Clothes boutique belonging to daughter at Pavillion KL.

Health Minister got caught in a sex scandal.

The ironies of life and politics in Malaysia. Time to stand up, take action and be counted!

Unsolved

It was ten past 12 in the foggy n very very cold thurs mornin tat i step my foot on the ground where my beloved best buddy fell down on the 30th nite on Nov 2007. His frens in genting told me tat the weather was same on tat fateful nite and tat gav me a kinda chill tat i nv felt b4...i stood at the place lookin up at his room and started talkin to myself tat how can he climb out when it's so high!?

Mixed emotions running through my heart n soul while rememberin him..i was kinda relief tat i finally get a chance to really look at the place n understand how it all happened. At the other hand...sadness tat i cant hide frm myself n others caught me up too. No words can really describe how i feel at tat moment when i was there..cold breeze n fog sadden me more cuz it was the same when he fell. Tat was the place where his last event held.He was unconscious after the fall and he lost alot of blood there. I was imagining the whole process and it was pain and nothing else. The pain of losing such a great fren like him is hard to overcome and it still hurts whenever i think abt him. The pain may have been lessen as time pass by but the scar of tis wound could nv heal no matter how long it takes. Standin there.thinkin tat how all tis could happen to him..i felt like he was there when i looked at the place n he kinda rush me up to his room so tat i wont catch a cold standin out there too long.

So i went up into his room n chat with his room mates and the 2 china guys tat saw him last climbin out of the window from next door. No one could clearly tell me wat time did he exactly fell. The 2 china neighbours too cant remember wat time it really happened. I kinda doubt wat the china guys were telling as they were claimin tat they were using earphone playing game while Tian Leng came into their room. Apparently they said tat they din notice his presence until he was right behind them and couldn't stop him from climbin out........Wat in the world were they thinking? People came into ur room and u were unnoticed abt it? They said the door were unlocked...lights were on and were playing game..but how could u never realise tat he came in? Same reasons again...was playing game..they saw him but din spoke to him. Wish i was there to stop him...I wonder how can this 2 china guys goes to sleep e'vynite after the incident. They could've stop tis tragedy frm happenin but they were PLAYING GAME WITH EARPHONE ON.

Nothing much tat i can find out frm them...it's like they've practiced tis speech 4 quite sum time. Up til today...no one in the college can tell why he wana get back into his room after the event without his keys. NO 1. Some poeple said tat it's fate....u cant stop it from happenin. Some people said tat there was foul play...Many versions has been spread abt how he fell among those tat got to kno him. I haven't get the chance to hear other versions but when i do..i'll post it out so tat u all kno how bad it can end up to be when rumours started spreading. He fell and broke his ribs...some says tat somethin went through his lungs while he fell and it caused his lungs to malfunction. Ridiculous people with ridiculous thoughts spreadin ridiculous rumours. After asking few questions to tat china guys..after hearin all his part of the stories...was kinda speechless and sent him back to his room. Mind was constantly thinkin abt wat happen... disappointed cuz no one has the answers to all the questions i asked. All claimed tat it happen too sudden and they were shocked. Mistery still unsolved...how i wish tat Tian Leng can come into my dreams n tell me wat really happen tat nite.

A fren of mine told me tat i should juz forget abt it cuz i can never kno the truth abt wat really happen tat nite. Im not a detective nor CSI..but i can never give up askin witnesses on tat nite. I've planned for another visit and meeting more of those tat was there when it happened. The nite was still very cold n foggy when i was abt to leave from there at abt 3 am. I really miss him alot and even felt his presence during the whole visit. I kno tat he is around lookin after us all. I'll try to find out wat really happened tat nite Jack. Rest in peace bro....

Ysync

A Visit from Tian Leng

I got a visit from Tian Leng. Don't remember much of the beginning. Just the part where his handphone rang. It was a call from him saying that he was home.

I was upstairs, in my room. So, I quickly ran down the stairs and stopped midway. There he was, standing by the door with tears in his eyes.

"I'm home..." he said.

As I took slow steps down, he extended his arms and reached out to me.

"No, you can't be real. I'm dreaming right? I'm still dreaming right?" I asked, and felt warm tears rolling down my cheeks.

He just gave me a weak smile.

I reached the bottom of the stairs and stood face to face with Tian Leng. He looked handsome. Healthy. No cuts or bruises or dilated pupils. Just ....... him. Just the way I remember him.

Then he held both my hands, leaned closer and gave me that trademark grin - raised eyebrows, big eyes and cheeky. Suddenly, he turned serious, looked directly into my eyes as if he was trying to say "listen to me", frowned and squeezed my hands so hard I jolted up.

It was a dream. But the numbness was real. Both my hands were numb. Very numb. I had to sit up and shake my hands until I felt the prickles of blood gushing through the veins. Then I found myself crying. It was so real. He... was so real. I hardly remember my dreams. I always forget once I wake up. But this dream .. his frown, his voice, the warmth of his hands, the hard squeeze, the brotherly love in his eyes, it was just sooo real.

When he stayed with me during his internship, I told him about waking up with numbness in my hands. I went to see a GP. He took my blood pressure and told me that it was probably due to air-conditioning. Tian Leng advised me to see doctor again because numbness is usually related to heart disease. Second doctor said I'm too young to be getting heart disease and probability of female is even lower. Tian Leng then told me that I just needed to exercise. "damn fat la you. You just need to exercise and lose weight and get better blood circulation. Else later you get diabetes then you know!"

Did he come into my dream to warn me of troubles ahead? Or was it just a visual replay of my subconscious mind? Between the logics of science and the complexities of spiritual realm, which one is real? Nonetheless, I take solace in the former and the comforting thought that he's looking down upon us, watching over us.

Maybe ... just a message from him that he's home. Always has been. Always will be.



- Hsieh May -

Why I Can't Forget Him

the dear frenz of the late khoo tian leng.... knowing that i was his gf... and he was the love of my life.... asked me to move on with my life and to be strong. there was one who told me to be a successful person and make him proud... well my reply to all of them is simple.... i will try my best and let time heal me.

i find it so hard to move on...
hard to forget the memories...
and the things we had and shared...
wat he did was like a routine...
i knew wat he wanted to do, before he could..
i knew wat was he gonna say before he said it...
i could read wat he was thinking at certain times....
i can still smell his sweat after futsal... or games..
i can still hear his voice.. in my heart
i can still feel him holding me at times..
i miss his kisses.. i miss his touch...
i miss his jokes... and i miss his sweet smile..

he was a person so important to me...
no one knew... who he is.. to me...
only people like his close frenz and family knew who i was..
thats how private he was...
but to me.... he is not just a boyfriend... he was a protector..
a lover .... a fren.. a counsellor... a companion.. my guide...
he was my no 1 supporter... he gave me the confidence to do anything i wanted...

when i first died my hair.. he was the one who gave me the confidence.. he said i would look like salma hayek... hehe.... well watever he say to me was a real motivation for me to strive in everything i did...

losing... losing him... was like me being in a coma state for a time being....
i couldnt think rasionally.. and i couldnt make any decisions on my own...
now my support comes from my family or sometimes my frenz...
but its not the same... he said it with lots of love and really in a deep thinking way....

i miss him lots.. as the day goes by... i miss him more.. People says that time will
heal the broken heart or the loss.. or the grieving state... but for me this is not true... not at all .... i miss him more and more as each day passes by...

im sure he wants to see me moving on... and being someone in the future...
i think i will do so.. being someone in future... but moving on... seems so hard ... i really don think thats easy.. as for me ... i really hope ... i am with him before i can move on... i wanna do the things he promised me he would.... the things he promised to do was...

1. to go to penang with me for christmas.
2. to go to australia together for our further studies
3. to give me a ring... for our engagement... was to be on the 13th october 2008... 3rd year anniversary...
4. go travelling together
5. to love me more.... give me more attention.

he was supposed to come back on the friday and see me on the saturday... but i couldnt see him or hear him... cause he was already in the hospital by then... i still find it so hard to believe he is gone.... cause i still awaits him with much enthusiasm... to hear his voice and for him to hug me... and just kiss me... or make a stupid joke...

he was my happiness... he brought laughter to my life... and he filled my life with much joy..
i was a lonely person.. with frenz only bout a number of them to go around with... but after knowing him.... his frenz were my frenz too ... the ironic part is that when he left.... he gave me his frenz... so that i wont be alone.... but its not the same... without him.... but i am grateful to have frens like this .... cause they really support u to the max.... and they are now... the reason why i stand strong today.... i cant thank him enough for bringing his frenz into my life.....

i know he is heaven shinning his light upon me... to guide me... but i pray everytime... that i would be able to meet him and be with him for eternity... and that we will be able to do the things we wanted ..... i will continue my journey on earth as he did... and i will live life to the fullest like he did.... i just want him to know.... i will never stop loving him... and he is still part of my heart and my life.... no one... no one ,.... can fill his shoes... in my life!!!

i miss u my darling tian leng... we will meet again... one fine day!! love u....

Toast to a Beautiful Life Worth Living

Remembering New Year celebrations to usher in 2007 ........

and yester years and the year that was .........

As we usher in 2008 ...

Forget not of him..... for he has reminded us of a beautiful life worth living. So keep memories of him close to the heart, but let go of the sorrow and live in the present. Be thankful for all the blessed privileges we have in our lives and make each day beautiful so that it will be worth remembering.

So here's a toast to a life of abundant joy, health, wealth and love. With new resolutions and renewed hopes and dreams, wishing everyone a fabulous 2008 and many more to come.

With Love, May and June

Missing You Right Now

when i listening to this song (apologize) by one republic, tian leng face always appear in my mind. this song was the best song that represent tian leng was my GREAT FRIEND!!! is past few week since tian leng gone and i knw all his buddies still in shock and miss him a lots!

I'm thinking why he should go so early??that so many thing he didnt done yet. Why that day he should climb the wall to went to his room?why he didnt take key from his friend? why why why??? Why this should happen to him? Haiz..... Tian Leng i realy miss u!!

Whenever i open his blog, see his pic, his smile deep inside my heart i cant breath,its something chocking me. did i have to shade me tear?? Why?? Great loss of him make me speechless.
(Deep breath)..............anyway i believe tian leng was happy up there. cracking joke with the angels, running up and down the stairs with his smiling face. I think God also pusing kepala with his attitude. New year coming soon my friend, wats ur plan? sure u can see clearly the firework at genting from up there la ya.but please dont vomit cx u scared of high and if u does u making rain for us down here.

Happy New Year to you buddy! we love you very much!! I love you more! See you in the next life :)

Dennish Eyu