Remembering New Year celebrations to usher in 2007 ........
and yester years and the year that was .........
As we usher in 2008 ...
Forget not of him..... for he has reminded us of a beautiful life worth living. So keep memories of him close to the heart, but let go of the sorrow and live in the present. Be thankful for all the blessed privileges we have in our lives and make each day beautiful so that it will be worth remembering.
So here's a toast to a life of abundant joy, health, wealth and love. With new resolutions and renewed hopes and dreams, wishing everyone a fabulous 2008 and many more to come.
when i listening to this song (apologize) by one republic, tian leng face always appear in my mind. this song was the best song that represent tian leng was my GREAT FRIEND!!! is past few week since tian leng gone and i knw all his buddies still in shock and miss him a lots!
I'm thinking why he should go so early??that so many thing he didnt done yet. Why that day he should climb the wall to went to his room?why he didnt take key from his friend? why why why??? Why this should happen to him? Haiz..... Tian Leng i realy miss u!!
Whenever i open his blog, see his pic, his smile deep inside my heart i cant breath,its something chocking me. did i have to shade me tear?? Why?? Great loss of him make me speechless. (Deep breath)..............anyway i believe tian leng was happy up there. cracking joke with the angels, running up and down the stairs with his smiling face. I think God also pusing kepala with his attitude. New year coming soon my friend, wats ur plan? sure u can see clearly the firework at genting from up there la ya.but please dont vomit cx u scared of high and if u does u making rain for us down here.
Happy New Year to you buddy! we love you very much!! I love you more! See you in the next life :) Dennish Eyu
Time flies, you've been gone for almost a month already.. I miss you badly. Remember how we have those so hai secrets that we share and suppose to keep to ourselves? we'll just laugh it all out, in a sudden, and ppl around us will get blur and start asking and we'll just continue laughing. I remember clearly Wai Seng always du lan with us coz we always laugh without him knowing wats happening. I've got alot more to tell u jack.. where have u gone to? why don't u appear anymore?
I know everything is different these days back there without you around.. I've been calling Wai Seng for updates and ...my predictions came true. Nothing is the same anymore..nobody is connecting ppl together. Nobody is organizing things anymore. See how much of an impact u are to them friends jack? I know you can read this, i know ur listening to my ramblings, i don't ask for much just visit me someday please? I need to talk to you. badly.
Since u've been gone, I realized that life's not that easy anymore.. I am still trying hard to adjust to life without you. I have fears, fears of heading back to PD. Fears of goin back to the places we share the most time with. Fear of facing familiar faces, fear of accepting the truth. I am terrified of not being able to spend times with you anymore when i get home.
Anyway, we'll all remember u for being the best mate u are. The great times will never be forgotten, but i need you to be with us jack. Don't forget us. Never. Don't make new frens den lupa kawan lama.
Jan 31st, on monday, ill head over to st kilda beach to have a toast with you. Nee will be the other end at pd. Will u be there?
New year is around the corner.. But it had brought back fond memories of u.. A few years ago in sunshine bay i remembered Wai Seng organized a New Year Barbeque party and all of us went for it.. You came and picked me up I remember.. and u asked me if I wouldn't have come that night where would I be celebrating new year... that was so long ago.. and this time around thinking that u would not be celebrating it reli makes me feel so sad.. because u are no longer here.. There are only memories for me to live with now... memories of u....I reli wanna tell u that I miss u so muchh... my life has never been the same again... I am really happy to know u and to share some of the very fond memories with u... U will always remain in my heart for the rest of my life... peace out bro... miss you so muchhhhh...>.<
Tis no has alot of meanin...in mandarin as in betray...4 christians means xmas...today is the 25th day since he left...i dono is it only me o wat...but i miss him even more as days pass by. tis is the 1st time i lost sum1 close to me. sum 1 really close n i still cant accept the fact tat he really went 1st...still remember we used to talk abt whose gettin married 1st n i always says tat he'll b the 1st to get married. i oso hope tat i could b his best man on his weddin. guess tat dream will nv come true tis life time.we oso used to talk abt whose gonna go 1st n we joked at each other tat he better give me his bike n all if he really go. cant believe tat our joke turn into reality n i wish i had nv said those things.
Kinda regret tat i din spend enough time wif him b4 he went away. last time i chill wif him was in kl n i remember tat time he was actin kinda weird but all he said was he was kinda sick. 2 weeks after tat i saw him again but tis time around...he cant even say hi. to me tis festive season is de darkest in my life yet. cant even celebrate wif a proper happy mood. sigh... jack...i miss u. u were the only tat i talk to abt football cuz we share the same passion in it. the other nite i watched alone n i thought abt u. We used to text each other n talk abt football. how ronaldo scores n how Man U played or how Liverpool gonna survive tis match n all. Tat nite i juz sat down alone n misses his msges. Feel like talkin to sum1 but who to turn to. We used to argue tat his Liverpool is the best n i'll b sayin tat my Man U is the best. Still remember b4 tis season started...we talked abt how strong Man U n Liverpool gonna be after the transfer market cuz they brought in new n young promisin talents n i told him tat Man U gonna win again but he says don ever under estimate his fav Liverpool. He din even hav the chance to witness how his Liverpool went down in front of their own fans at Anfield.
Man...miss him very vey much. his innocent face after doin stupid things to u n make u laugh. U can nv get angry at him 4 too long cuz he'll do e'vythin to make u 4giv him in a flash wif his cheeky attitude. he'll make jokes n funny faces. he was there to advise me when i face a problem.
He brings e'vy1 together whenever he's back in pd. Now pd is so quiet since he left...i hardly hang out wif my frenz cuz no 1 is connectin us together. things juz change..whether u like it or not. I miss sittin in his car tat blast music to the laudest. he'll scream if he had to talk to u rather slowin down the music. he'll ask u out to go do sum sports wif him whenver he's around. he'll ask u out 4 a drink when he's hungry o bored. he'll ask u to join him 4 a ride if he's goin up to kl or s'ban. there's always a plan whenever he's there. Snooker at a n e. yamcha at A1. Drinkin session at Sunshine Bay or Corus pool side. Dota at lukut cc. stonin e'vywhere. juz get crazy wif him. knowin tat ur always around keeps me at peace. i don think i'll b seein u anytime soon cuz I'm gonna live my life to the fullest n go c u only when my time is up k. i wish to join u now but there are things to be done...4 myself n u. Pls come visit me whenever u feel like comin k. come into my dream n talk to me. I'll appreciate it. Thank u for givin me the opportunity of being a part of ur life jack. Miss u.
After lepak-ing with some of Tian Leng’s friend the other day, I heard many different stories bout him.what stories?well..the usual lah..all the silly things that he had done with or to his friends. Tian Leng is very different from what he is at home and when he is with his friends.but he doesn’t pretend.he is,what he is. In the house,he’ll be that sorta innocent face boy with that cheeky smile,watching tv,reading newspapers, but when he’s with his friends...its like the sky is gonna fall cuz you dunno what “BrillianT” idea they might come out and once he’s with them..he’s change into someone other than what you see in the house.he’ll be out there hanging out with his friends and having a party.For him,the Day is Night and the Night is Day.
I know that Tian Leng is a great football player.that is his most favourite sport of all.he even once told me that he came back 6 in the morning cause he was playing futsal whole night in Dataran Segar..even my youth fellowship friends said before that he can play very well. Wai Seng said that they were the best football team in pd and they named themselves Valentino.i think that this name is very one of a kind cause it sounds like a real football team in tv..he’s so hooked up in football that he would stay up the whole night just to catch an interesting game.And he would on bets with his friends.but..i dun think he’s a good better. hehe..
Know what..Oscar has been so dull and not so active since Tian Leng left.FYI,Oscar is one of our dogs. It is a shih tzu dog,we got it last year December and it is the most pampered dog among the other dogs!anyways,why do i say that he has been dull and unhappy?well..cause Tian Leng is not here anymore to play football with him and share and practice his skills with him.I tried playing football with him but i guess it aint the same as how Tian Leng plays with him.Maybe its cause i don’t have the skills that Tian Leng has..that why he’s not so passionate of playing with me.Usually when Tian Leng plays football with him,he would be like ssoooo hyperactive and chasing Tian Leng’s feet instead of the ball.hehe...and he wouldn’t give up..he would chase Tian Leng around,trying to get the ball and also to bite Tian Leng’s feet.I aint a dog so i dunno wat Oscar’s thinking..maybe he’ wondering...
“hhmmm...where’s my owner that always play football with me?where has he gone to?when is he coming back back?i hope its soon cause i cant wait to have another football game with him!”
Tian Leng likes playing with Oscar..he especially loves to tease him.tian Leng is also the expert on catching ticks for Oscar if there are and Oscar would just sit down there quietly.However there is one thing bout Oscar that he really dislike..that is when he shits or pees in the house!he’ll be like
“wahlao eh!”
The next thing you know is..
“June! or ah..May ah! or mummy...Oscar shit in the house”
He said before that if he pee its ok cuz “just take a newspaper and put it on top of the pee mah..den mop can liao.but if shit ah.walao..cannot lah..disgusting wei!” Thats why the other day i was was thinking to myself...he goes to the toilet,shit more than 1 times a day..i think max also 6 times..but he scared to wipe of Oscar shit.its the same what..juz take newspaper and wipe of the shit..not even touching it with bare hands wat..my sister asked him before he same question that i had in mind.well..what he said was...
“my shit nevermind mah!its mine..but that wan is not my shit,its oscar’s wan. yeerrrr!”
Well..sorry Oscar but i’m afraid he wont be here to play a game of football with you or catch your ticks for you anymore and he definitely doesn’t need to worry bout wiping off your pee and shit anymore. ;o)
i wonder if oscar can see him?maybe that explains why he will suddenly bark for no reason...if i can be like those people or animals like cats and dogs who can see things unordinary..if i can see Tian Leng ..i’d be like freaked out first..cuz...hehe..you know lah..scared of ghost mah..he oso like that wat..
But at the same time..i’d feel glad and happy..maybe stunned alsolah..but its a good thing to have that kinda xperience..to have that rush of adrenaline going through your body..hehe..well... i hope that the place that you are now,that you teach them your great football skills as what you had taught Oscar and your friends and carry on your amazing football spirit!! Go Liverpool!! ^,^
merry christmas jack!! still remember wat we did last year 4 xmas.
we went drinkin by the beach beside de luv bridge...had so much fun wif him juz by gettin drunk ...he'll force us to drink no matter how high u are. tat's jack. always there to ask u to drink wif him n u will nv get bored when he is around. he was the entertainer in the geng...always crack sum crazy jokes tat will blow ur stomach.
on xmas tis year..i went to the same place where i got drunk with him n drink wif plakas all but it was so borin n almost made me fell asleep..sorry to say tis plakas...but i really did felt tat way. o mayb i juz went wif the wrong ppl...the only person tat were talkin to me was plakas n the others were bz wif their own business...juz make me sick when i think back abt tat nite...i bet plakas will agree wif me. wat we lack there is the presence of jack!
enough abt tat nite...it was a nite to 4get...wat a WONDERFUL xmas i had tis year. sucks to the max man...i miss him dearly when i was there n juz keep drinkin hopin tat i would get drunk n get back the same joy i got last year when he was around. GOD had a BETTER plan 4 him...HELL YEAH!!!! GOD...i don believe tat crap...if there is god...y take him away? better plan? yeah rite. it sucks totally after he went away. things are not the same anymore... i miss u freakin lot jack!!!! miss e'vy single thing abt u man. really hope tat u can crack few jokes nn brighten up my day.
Birthdays are suppose to be joyous,happy,full of excitement and fun ryte? well...it is going to be my birthday soon,i had great fun during my birthday for the past years but this year? well...i’m not so sure..it was suppose to be the best birthday ever..but turns out it aint the great as i thought it would be. To me celebrating this kinda occasions,it is important for me that i have my most important people in my life beside me..which is my Family and Friends..Having these people in my life and to celebrate my special day means alot to me.however this year is the total opposite from what i had expected...
Few months back,my sister,Tian Leng and i were on our way back from a dinner. It was just the three of us..when suddenly my sister said something about organising a birthday party for me. i was thrilled and excited since the last one i did was when i was standard 6. At first i hesitated on whether to have it or not cause if we were to do one,it means there are alot of work to be done and we don’t even have a maid to help us out. Plus,i dun want my family to be tired and exhausted just to do this party for me. Then my sister also said that she can also add this event into her portfolio..so i thought..ok..why not? She even ask me what is the theme colour that i want for the party. Tian Leng also agreed to help with this party. He even said
“oklah..i can bring along my friends also”
“its june june’s party nothing to do with your friends also wat” my sister joked.
Even for my 12th birthday he was there to help and he brought wai seng along also. so i wouldn’t mind if he brought his friends along. As long as all of us have fun ryte? when i was younger, i would occasionally ask him about my birthday and he always forget about it and i would force him to remember it!but when he’s elder he still forgets but sometimes he was only acting that he forgets but actually he do remembers. few years back..can’t remember when..it was my birthday..
“koh koh...its my birthday today where’s my present lah?”
“hah!what day is today? today your birthday meh? i thought its later somemore?”
“nolah!! 2day is 27th dec lah!”
“ya oh.. *grins*”
“so...where's my present?! Eh?Where you going?”
“upstairs bathe la..wanna go see my friends liao”
Then off he went on his bike to meet his friends. i remembered i even nearly cried that he said that he forgot my birthday and he didn’t even bought a present for me! then he came back in the evening..i was still kinda pissed and sad.he didn’t say anything to me also just sit on the chair watch tv. then he took something that looks like a box out of his pocket but he realised that he took out the wrong thing and quickly put it back in. i saw what he did and i asked him
“whats that?”
“nothinglah”
“tell me lah whats that? i know i saw something. take out,i wanna see!”
“haiya..that one for my gf wanlah.”
But i didn’t give up..i keep asking him and i could see him grinning. i tried to take it from him but he was too fast for me so he dashed upstairs, lock the room.well..that time still small girl..i just believed whatever he said. then by night,when i blowed th candles of the cake,he gave me that box..it was white,i opened it. it was a blue cross necklace..then only i realised that the box that he was holding just now was for me..i was so happy..hehe..practically went telling my friends that my brother gave me that necklace.
When he was younger and i was even younger,he sometimes would hit me. it was very painful and i would start crying nonstop and he would scold me asking me to stop crying. I was also very scared if he raised his voice. back during those times,i would think that he doesn’t love me..he hates me .As time passes by,we grow older i know that actually he does care about me. Tian Leng doesn’t like it when my dad says things that he doesn’t like to hear and sometimes he would get impatient and will sound annoyed but he still controls himself to not have a fight with my dad. Sometimes when my mom and sister lectures him,he might feel that its disturbing and would put on a blank face and turn a deaf ear but actually he does listens. sometimes,he will have fights with prema and would say things that are hurtful and break up but after sometime to settle down he would tell her that he loves her very much and patch things up. his friends are a big part of his life. he’s always to back up his friends if they are in any sort of trouble. Tian Leng is definitely NOT a self-centred person, he puts his family and friends in front of him.
Sometimes we might think that he doesn’t care or love us cause his actions doesn’t show us that he cares but sometimes his actions and words show us that he does care about us. actually deep down inside he always does. Its just that he doesn’t shows it. Now, He’s just like the wind..he’s around us, he’s looking upon us, his love is ther... we can’t see it...we just can feel it. He will always be a part of our lives, in every step of our lives he will be there for us...side by side...he will still carry each and everyone of us in his heart forever......
Jack, I remember i kept playing this song last time when I was back. When you were in my car, i think u listened to it 100000 times already. Haha after reading jun's post, only I know that u actually liked it too. Good times :>
In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun... Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed, This world you must've crossed... you said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah, She said You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across An open field, When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry When they see you You said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah, She said You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
She said I think I'll go to Boston... I think I'll start a new life, I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name, I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather, I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain... I think I'll go to Boston, I think that I'm just tired I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind... I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset, I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,
You don't know me, you don't even care...
Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah Where no one knows my name... Where no one knows my name... Yeah Boston... Where no one knows my name.
It has been like...wat..? 3 weeks? since you left us..it seems like the days pass by so slowly when you are not around.i miss those cackling laughter that u make..that cheeky smile and all those stupid yet funny jokes that u always make..its sounds so stupid that it makes everyone of us laugh.yeap..i really miss those times.
I also miss the times when you’d knock on my room door and ask me to open the door quickly as though there was something very important.. when I open the door,you would just barge in and then stand in front of my mirror.And i was like...
”err...don’t you have a mirror in your room?”
And you replied “your mirror bigger mah!”
And I would just smile at you...and then sometimes you will ask me questions like..
“eh, how ah this wan ok ah? I look better in this wan or just now that shirt?”
Sometimes I would give my opinion but sometimes before I could say anything you would say
“nolah,i think just now i wear that shirt better..this wan look damn gay ryte?”
And i would just agree and say yalor yalor..
There are many things that you do would make ppl laugh a Thousand miles..such as that crazy crazy and so-hai face that you make when you sing a song... your voice may not be as great as those of what you hear in American Idol and it also may go out of tune, but it definitely is the sweetest.
Since you left, your stuff such as the laptop is mine already.... I promise that I will take good care of it. So as your handphone and simcard. Mom say that she’ll still top up RM10 for you every month. Don’t worry cuz I will treasure it and keep it safe. There’s still the song Boston by Augustana in it. That time you really really love that song and you asked me whether i have it so i Bluetooth it to you. That time you were so blur.. I send to you already but you keep telling me that you check it already and haven’t receive it. I send again several times but your phone says cannot receive pulak. So you said... “oh,lidat ah..nevermind lorr..”
Mana tau when I was going through your phone. That song was inside there pulak. I told you and you were like.. “oh ya ahh??hehehe...oklor..”
This is a very peaceful and dream like song.You asked me whether i knew how to play that song on the piano anot..that time i said i dunno.then i asked my friend to teach and give me the chords.i finally got it right and i wanted to play it for you but i guessed i didn’t had the chance to do so.i also learned to play your favourite song during YF.”The Illusive Dream”.so everytime when i miss you or feel like talking to you i would play these songs.
That day i had a dream about you ler!!it wa the kinda dream that is kinda funny and weird to me la..it was like this..i was at this place(i dunno where also) with tables and long chairs..prema,wai seng were there and some of my friends were there also..after talkin to my friend i went to your table where prema and wai seng were there.after curi-ing something to eat from wais eng,you called me and walking away from the crowd.you looked serious and you whispered something to me.you were asking me about something..then when i told you the story,you realized that it was just a rumour spreaded by some gal.you got really angry and you yelled at her.telling her never ever say those kinda things bout me and simply spreading things that are not true.that gal got so palat dy so she just didn’t say anything and sat down there..
You looked very serious in my dreams,i got scared and i thought that you were gonna scold me.but instead you trusted me.i was very touched and happy when i woke up the next morning.cuz its like you are still here,doin your job as a great big bro, looking over your lil’ mui mui,its like you are watching my back,taking care of Me.
After that dream it felt to me like although your not here but you are my guardian angel,still and always protecting me.i thank you for all the love and care that you had given to me for no one can ever replace that brotherly love that you had given to me.
It's exactly three weeks last night when you had your fall and I remembered the wee hours morning call that I got from 'Uncle Rashid' the guy in charge of accommodations. He called me at 3.00 am and said"Puan, Khoo jatuh dari tingkat tiga" I was shocked to get that call and I asked him"Khoo tian Lengkah?" "Ya Puan, minta maaf menggangu puan" was what he said. My husband who had just come up to sleep after watching t.v asked me what was it and I told him that tian leng had fallen he quickly called my daughter Charmaine who was tian leng's batch in school and his senior in college and told her about it.Our first thought that he and his room-mates were fooling around in his room and somehow or other had fallen from the window. I called Rashid again and asked him how bad he said,"Puan doalah, teruk sangat. From that moment I could not sleep and I know both my children too were effected by the news. I prayed asking the Lord to save him. At 7am my son gets a message that he is really bad. I waited till 8.00am when I called on my prayer group to pray for him. I spent the whole day praying begging God to work a miracle. On Sunday when I was in church I got another message that he was bad I broke down and asked the Lord why. Still I did not give up hope thinking that the Lord will answer our prayers as there were so many people praying for him. I even emailed my cousin in the US to pray for him and on the net Parents who pray pleading for all to pray for him.When my children and I went to the hospital to see him and I spoke to him telling him that many of us were there waiting for him and I was hoping that by speaking to him he would fight and come out of it but God had a better plan for him.
Tian Leng had something about him that when anyone who came in contact with him will sort of get hooked on him.There was something infectious about him. I only knew of him through my daughter who use to talk about him from school and he had this bad habit of passing my house on Saturday nights in his parent's jeep and shouting out my daughter's name. He had been to our home for christmas but he was shy. When I went to college to lecture at the begining of this year he was sitting for his 3rd semester exam and was going out for his industrial training. I only had two classes with him before his death. I still remember his first class, after his class he asked me what Charmaine was doing and where was she going to do her degree? I told him Australia and he asked me about the cost.
I remember the Monday morning when Shaun came pass my office at 9.45 as I was getting ready to go to tian leng's for my lecture and he just said Gone. I broke down and also had to be the bearer of the bad news to all his friends.
Till today I'm finding it difficult to accpet his death I find it difficult to go to his class and believe it or not my children and I just don't feel like celebrating Christmas as it will remind us of tian leng. He had told Charmaine a few days before he fell that he will be coming for Christmas to our house.
Well tian leng we won't have the pleasure of having u with us but u will always be in our hearts.
I wish u well up there. I knew you painted it so soothingly beautiful. I know you were the one who answered Prema with a shooting star. We miss your presence, but we all know ur around us, always.
I know u coloured the skies too :)
There's traffic in the sky and it doesn't seem to be getting much better There's kids playing games on the pavement Drawing waves on the pavement mm hm Shadows of the planes on the pavement mm hm It's enough to make me cry But that don't seem like it could make it feel better Maybe it's a dream and if I scream it will burst at the seams and this whole place will fall into pieces and then they'd say...
Well how could we have known? I'll tell them it's not so hard to tell na na na if you keep adding stones soon the water will be lost in the well mm hm
Puzzle pieces in the ground but no one ever seems to be digging Instead they're looking up towards the heavens with their eyes on the heavens mm hm the shadows on the way to the heavens mm hm It's enough to make me cry but that don't seem like it would make it feel better The answers could be found we could learn from digging down but no one ever seems to be digging instead they'll say...
Well how could we have known? I'll tell them it's not so hard to tell na na na if you keep adding stones soon the water will be lost in the well mm hmmm
Words of wisdom all around but no one ever seems to listen They talk about their plans on the paper Building up from the pavement mm hm there're shadows from the scrapers on the pavement mm hm It's enough to make me sigh but that don't seem like it would make it feel better The words are all around but the words are only sounds and no one ever seems to listen Instead they'll say...
Well how could we have known? I'll tell them it's really not so hard to tell na na na If you keep adding stones soon the water will be lost in the well lost in the well mm mm mm
Even though you’ve been gone 15 days, the pain of losing you and seeing you lying on the hospital bed is still fresh in my mind. I have never ever felt as helpless in my life as I watched you lie on the hospital bed. I pleaded with God to show some pity and mercy and let you live but God, for His own reason, did not answer our prayers.
I remembered you, Hsieh May, Cici and I playing around grandfather’s hotel compartment in PD. The hotel was on a huge lot with loads of rooms to hide so, we used to play hide and seek, with you and Cici pairing together and Hsieh May and I another team. And we also spent some of our school holidays going up to Genting. Just the other day I was reminiscing on old times and I flicked through some of the pics taken during our holiday to Genting.
You have grown up from a cute little boy to a handsome, strapping young lad and even though we are grieving that the Lord has taken you away at such a tender age, I know that this is only a temporary separation and that God has always the best plans for us. So, even though, we all miss you very very much, by God’s grace, we will all meet again and this time, never to be separated.
Rest In Peace my friend..Khoo was the best trainee that i ever had..fast learner and never complaint anything..it was such a wonderful to know u...may GOD be with you...
“Do you notice that nice people alwiz die first?” Tian Leng asked me.
“I think how a person dies has to do with how he lived his life,” he said.
“But they don’t suffer. Maybe just for a short while-la. But they don’t suffer,” he continued.
“See, like Galvin’s father. Nice man wat. Dunno why so fast.”
“But those bad people ah…sure suffer damn long one. Or they live but cacat-ed u know….. I think God is fair.”
Sometimes this boy will just catch you off guard with deep conversations like this.
I know you're in a much better place now. At least, you didn’t suffer for long too. God has better plans for you. The Spirit carries on…. but you will always be remembered.
Ah Pek..wat if u din live by ur ego n called Inder to get the keys when he was downstairs.. wat if u din climb out of the window n wait 4 the keys? wat if u din go 4 de event n went back to pd strait?
wat if u were sent to the private instead of the stupid HKL?
there's juz too many questions playin in my mind when i heard tat u finally went away on the coldest monday mornin of my life... y u left us? y u chose to b a hero n tried to climb? y din u call o msg o even walk down to get ur keys? y?
Too many questions to b answered frm u but u couldn't speak when we saw u lyin on the hospital bed bleedin non stop...
It was heart breakin news when i found out tat u were in critical condition from prema while we were playin dota tat nite... things will nv b the same with out u around.. but tat's juz the way it is.. till today im still thinkin tat u would juz msg me n ask me out 4 a drink o snooker o futsal..
u left in a tragic way where no 1 could've accept tat ur gone.. wat abt ur dreams of goin to work s flight attendent in emirates? wat abt goin overseas to further ur studies? we hardly meet 4 the past few weeks n u juz went with out even sayin bye. there's so much memories tat u left behind b it sweet o bitter.
the last shit we got into together was in seremban when ur tyres went flat near the hospital. we couldn't get it changed n we called e'vy1 tat we knew to help out but only kok siang came to rescue us tat nite at 3am. I 1st met u in standard 4 when u called urself bruce lee rite infront of me wif tat round face of urs.
ur still the ah pek to me. 1 n only. we grew up together through tis 11 years doin all the things tat can b done s frens...
I do remember tat we used to climb up to the highest floors of all the hotels in pd n take a look at the place we live from above. everywhere i go in pd hav different memories abt us. sum ppl even asked whether r we brothers cuz they said tat we kinda look alike. funny thing is tat good ppl always go b4 the bad 1s.
I'll be missing u my fren. u hav too many best frens n im proud to be 1 of them. i'll c u when i get there jack. tk care of urself nigga n don worry abt us here. i'll visit ur family whenever i can even though i've shifted to puchong n i'll live a better life. -to be continued-
Sesuatu yang tak disangka sering kali mendatangi kita, itukah suratan dalam kehidupan atau sekadar satu kebetulan.... kita asyik membicarakan persoalan hidup dan pilihan serta kejujuran semakin berkurang... masih tiada bertemu jawapan...... walau kita dihadapkan dengan pelbagai pilihan..... Mengapa sering terjadi pilihan tak menepati..... hingga amat menakutkan menghadapi masa depan...... seolah telah terhapus sebuah kehidupan yang kudus.
Sesuatu yang tak disangka......seringkali bukan pilihan sendiri. Namun diriku akur dengan kehendak illahi. Sebelum kata-kata dipanjangkan,terlebih dahulu saya dan keluarga serta rakan-rakan(palace of the golden horses) mengucap takziah pada sekeluarga KHOO TIAN LENG. Laut yang biru berombak dengan tenang.......... Sedih dihati tidak begitu tenang... Hanya berserah pada illahi apa kehendaknya........ Pena kata-kata akan meneruskan penceritaan kisah jalan kehidupan KHOO TIAN LENG di palace of the golden horses......
Hari pertama melangkah ke palace of the golden horses (training) senyumannya lebar kerana tanda kegembiraan dapat menemui sahabat baru. Tidak pernah terjumpa akan senyuman KHOO TIAN LENG yang tidak kedekut memberi senyuman bila berjumpa. Senyumannya membuat hati seseorang itu tenang. Lokasi pertama yang dijejaki Khoo Tian Leng di tempat yang amat diminatinya ialah CAFEHOUSE CAROUSEL RESTAURANT. Itulah satu-satunya tempat yang dia suka dari outlet lain.Bila terasa bosan di outlet lain dia pasti akan bertandang ke Carousel Restaurant. Memang tak dapat dinafikan cafehouse carousel restaurant adalah satu-satunya tempat dia bergurau dan berperang dengan sahabat. Malah dia begitu amat friendly. Tak hairanlah dia begitu ramai sahabat. Sewaktu training di cafehouse (carousel), dia tak pernah megeluh malah dia lebih cergas apa kerja yang diberi. Malah dia tak pernah melawan kata-kata.
Banyak kenangan manis tak dapat dilupakan semasa bersama dengan Khoo Tian Leng. Khoo seorang yang menepati pada janjinya. Apa yang kita ajar secara automatik dia cepat menangkap. Ada sekali saya bertanyakan pada dia."how ur training?"jawapan yang di beri amat simple saja....."I like". Setiap kali datang tempat kerja (carousel restaurant)dia tak pernah lewat walaupun seminit. Bila tiba saja OFF DAY ,dia begitu amat gembira. Kadangkala bila tiba saja off day dia akan balik ke Port Dickson. Disitulah satu-satunya istananya kerana dapat bertemu dengan ayah,ibu dan adik tercinta. Khoo Tian Leng anak yang kedua yang lahir pada 1 Febuari 1986(seremban). Sewaktu training di palace of golden horses ,Khoo tian leng tinggal bersama kakaknya. Khoo Tian leng traning di cafehouse selama 2 bulan. Bila habis training di cafehouse, berat hati nak melepas,kerana dia seorang yang baik hati dan budi amat sukar kita tafsirkan. Seterusnya Khoo Tian Leng meneruskan training di kin ma (chinese restaurant), Room Service, Housekeeping dan Front Office.
Hari terakhir Khoo Tian Leng di palace af Golden Horses pada 14 Julai 2007. Pada tarikh tersebut juga adalah yang amat ditunggu-tunggu.Kerana tarikh itu tidak dapat dilupakan pada dirinya, kerana Khoo tian Leng ada berkata...Tarikh tersebut adalah hari ulangtahun lahir ibunya. Itulah kasih sayang anak yang tak pernah melupakan ibu tersayang. Sewaktu hari terakhir training di palace of golden horses, tiada kata apa-apa pun pada sesiapa. Kerana dia tak ingin sahabatnya sedih. Setelah habis training di palace of golden horses,Khoo Tian Leng juga ada berkata akan berkerja permanent di cafehouse setelah selesainya belajar di kolej Genting. Itulah janjinya.
Walaupun lama tak jumpa Khoo Tian Leng, hanya telefon bimbit menjadi perhubungan kerana susah untuk jumpa sahabat yang mengerti akan perasaan seseorang. Khoo Tian Leng bukan seorang yang melupakan sahabat. Malah dia bukan seorang yang sombong. Sewaktu di palace of golden horses, waktu time break di cafestaff, makanan kegemaran yang amat digemari nya adalah buah betik dan salad. Itulah menu paling digemarinya. SABAH adalah satu destinasi yang dinanti-nanti Khoo Tian Leng pada tahun depan 2008, kerana dia berhasrat akan ke sabah untuk mendaki gunung Kinabalu.
Keinginannya tidak kesampaian. Hati siapa yang tak pilu .......kerana Khoo Tian Leng seorang yang amat lasak dalam bersukan. Bermacam sukan yang digemarinya. Khoo Tian Leng seorang yang sihat dan cergas. Walaupun Khoo Tian Leng pergi begitu sahaja namun budi hati nya akan dikenang selama-lamanya. Memang sukar untuk meneriama kenyataan sebenar. Airmata bercucuran dipipi apabila mendengar khabar yang tidak sebaik pada 30 nov 2007. 30 nov 2007 merupakan kejadian buruk yang menimpa pada Khoo Tian Leng. Pada 3 disember 2007 adalah hari terakhir Khoo Tian Leng menghembus nafasnya dan meninggalkan kita. Kerana sayang TUHAN ........aku pasrah akan ketentuannya. Hanya doa pegubat rindu.........
Dari sahabat mu Mohamad Harris fasli Bin Ahmad (Sarawak)..........................!!!!!
Khoo Tian Leng my BEST FRIEND i ever have!! what should write more bout him.......?? Great lost of him make me speechless!! we use to do stupid thing whn he still around us. For me he is truly amazing person. The day whn he walk off of our life actually i dont believe cx i think he strong to fight for his life but unfortunately i'm wrong. Deep inside my heart i love him so much!! Every day i keep thinking of his face, his laugh and his funny smile. I still cant take it that he has gone to The Mightiest,is out of my mind!! I believed he still here,he always still with us!! ppl will i stupid and bullshitter but for me Tain Leng still near to us and i'm sure he will create thousand of joke to us whn he see us.
He is amazing man!! You Are The Man my friend!! My prayer for u will never end!! Rest In Peace! Dont be naughty and playfull! You will always in my heart!! Love you forever my beloved my friend Khoo Tian Leng!!
Ten days have gone by.. I wonder how are you doing over there? I still have dreams of riding with you on our mountain bikes Tian Leng, hope you havent forgotten our deal? When I look back at the testis written for you and the pictures posted on this page, I am really proud of you dawg. You're officially a legend. Who lives on forever.
I dedicate this song to you tian leng. And I want you to know, that no matter what happens in the future, you'll always be my best mate, and I know you're living forever in our hearts.
Where did we come from? Why are we here? Where do we go when we die? What lies beyond And what lay before? Is anything certain in life?
They say, life is too short, The here and the now And youre only given one shot But could there be more, Have I lived before, Or could this be all that weve got?
If I die tomorrow Id be allright Because I believe That after were gone The spirit carries on
I used to be frightened of dying I used to think death was the end But that was before Im not scared anymore I know that my soul will transcend
I may never find all the answers I may never understand why I may never prove What I know to be true But I know that I still have to try
If I die tomorrow Id be allright Because I believe That after were gone The spirit carries on
Move on, be brave Dont weep at my grave Because I am no longer here But please never let Your memory of me disappear
Safe in the light that surrounds me Free of the fear and the pain My questioning mind Has helped me to find The meaning in my life again Victorias real I finally feel At peace with the girl in my dreams And now that Im here Its perfectly clear I found out what all of this means
If I die tomorrow Id be allright Because I believe That after were gone The spirit carries on
Tian Leng, You are once again surrounded by a brilliant white light. allow the light to lead you away from your past and into this lifetime. as the light dissipates you will slowly fade back into con Sness remembering all you have learned. when I tell you to open your eyes you will return to the present, feeling peaceful and refreshed. open your eyes, my friend.
We would like to extend our THANK YOUs to everyone out there who has supported Tian Leng and his family during this trying period. We would like to acknowledge and thank (in no particular order):-
Last Friday night,my college had any event organized by batch 18 students...
I didn't went for the event although i wanted too.. Because I was having my Fnb service practical. After the event finished,something terrible had happen. I only get to know it the next day.One of my senior (Senior Khoo Tian Leng) wanted to get into his room but he forgotten his key.. So he went to the next room and climb the window to get into his room. Unfortunately, while he was climbing, he lost his balance and fall down from 3rd floor.(His room is located on the 3rd floor), Many people rush to see what have happen cause they say he did scream.
I didn't hear the scream although my room is not fair from the place where he fall,because i was busy doing my assignment with the earphones plugged in my ears. After that,the senior was rushed to the hospital.Next day, news spread very fast. Everyone in the college knew about it,and everyone keep praying and hoping that he will be alright.Yesterday, i just know that he is in a coma state. Heard from my friend that after he was being hospitalized he was in coma.
This morning, we all go to class as usual. Before our lesson starts, our lecturer Mr.Fadzil, ask all of my batch to said a prayer to God to bless our senior and hope he get well soon. After 45 minutes our class starts, we were all interrupted by Ms. Dorothy.I don't know what she was discussing with Mr. Fadzil about,because both of them are talking outside the classroom. After a few minutes, Mr.Fadzil returned back into the classroom. He said" Aiya, Ms Dorothy spoilt my mood only".Then, i guess that something bad happen, but i didn't foresee that something worst will happen next. After that ,Mr.Fadzil continue his lessons and told us when he was still an apprentice. After a few minutes of having a good laugh with Mr.Fadzil, Ms Melissa interrupt our class. Mr.Fadzil went out, and he returned back to the classroom quite fast. This time,He said "Guys, I have a bad news for you. Your senior just passed away. So i have to go n visit him and I will see you in the next class." I could see that his eyes are red and wet.After that, he just walk out of the room.
All class are dismissed , Lots of girls in my batch cried after hearing the news.I think that it is a waste, cause my senior will be graduating in a few months.Although i feel quite sad,but i think that i have to move on with my life. I may not know who is this senior, but i will still pray for him. I may be sad but i don't think that i should saw the whole world that i am.It's not selfish, but it is making me stronger by not crying.(This is dedicated to Senior Khoo)
Dearest Senior,
You may not know me, and i may not know you.
But definately, i knew that you exist in this world before.
Hope that you will have a better life in the other world.
We will all remember you.
Rest In Peace.
May the Angels up there protect and take care of you.
H
ope you are happy there.And I also hope that when you are reborn back, you will be reborn in a better place, better time and in a better life than your previous life.
Tian Leng was one of my most dearest friends and knowing what happen really devastated me. He was always enjoying himself , not in a selfish manner but constantly making people around him smile . He was shy but playful at the same time , bringing joy to everyone with his bubbly attitude .
You will always be in our hearts and hopefully you may rest in peace. Always treated you like a brother and always will have.
Thank you for the joyous moments you brought in to my life and many others . You will be deeply missed. Adrian Wong
hi, im prema rachel. i would like to share a little on my dearest darling tian leng.
we met around september 2005 in subang when he was there and i was doing my nursing course. we would go on a date and he was such a shy guy that he would always bring his frenz along so that they can come up with something to start a conversation. i remembered one of the first was Galvin in mcD's. he was so shy, perspiring to the max, cold and clammy hands. he forced Galvin to start a conversation but i still was more interested in wat he had to say. after some time, when we got closer, he used to come to my condominium ( hostel) , just to chill with me. he had no transport so he always took a cab. we would go for a walk and end up at the park. we used to chill and talk alot!! well i will be talking alot!! when he first kissed me..... he cracked a joke after... saying he is not good at it.. i smiled and said u r doing fine.... hehe :)
after sometime, i got to know his subang frenz aka The BC's and they were all lovely ppl. i was so happy to hang out with them.. we hung out together almost everyday!!
tian leng and me.... and always good times.. we had our ups and downs.... but eventually we will still make up.. and be happy together.... his subang frenz always say we look good together... he would just smile...
slowly he took me to meet his family, and till today i am grateful to know them... they r my second family now... they were there for me all the time... through thick and thin especially his loving mum. his family,from his dad till his younger sister are all so nice ppl.
i remembered once tian leng told me to help hsieh may on an event and we were supposed to wear black pants, but i had only a black skirt...... he saw me and said " DAMN!!! i think the guys will have their tongues out!! I got to make sure im with u!! " he is so funny!!
when we were together we had more arguements rather than sweet moments but when we do have sweet moments its just so unforgettable..... i miss him dearly i miss the times we shared together. just missed being in ur arms and just being cuddled. loved and being ur gal!!
i remembered i asked u once when will u marry me ... u said we have a long way to go... and i just smiled.... and then that night u mesaged me this" go ahead and be angry for my love will never end for you do watever u wantsay watever u like but i will never stop loving you for sure!! "
well i just knew he was a keeper... i told him i was never so serious in any relationships and i took him seriously and that i would bring it as far as possible..... he said " darling the reason why we r together is becoz u tolerate with my behaviour and watever i do.... thats why we r together..." then i said.... i can tolerate cause i understand u and i love u lots... he replied saying " yup, no one understands me better than u!! "
my dearest darling eventhough we only had 2 years 1 month and 20 days together , my count will never stop... i know u r with me ... and i know one sweet day i will meet u at that beautiful shore where u r now ... happily swimming and fishing freely.... without worries... smilling!!! i cant wait till we meet again..... my darling!
i just wanna thank u for the moments and memories we had.. and for ur love!! u are a real loving guy and i was lucky to have known u!!! my dear.....
the picture of u posing with the orange underwear on proved to me that you're not a fei zai anymore. very impressive ah.. not bad.. got muscle weh.. mo lam loo...
Yo man... why so early??? There are loads of things that i wanna tell after I come back from UK... cars... bicycles... every time I see a cyclist with a trek bike, the first thing that comes to me is you...
I remember all the things I have done together with you and will never forget about it... you have always been my idol since the day I know you... I get to know lots of things from you.. fishing... basketball... cycling... everything man... eventhough we have not get in touch much these few years but still I always care for you... you know what happened right???
You will always be my best friend and no one will ever take your place... miss you and love you... see you bro...
it's hard to describe how you and i both relate. sometimes, i consider it as the wonders of port dickson... like to me, u will always be there.
i guess i can say we;ve grown up together.. we all have, haven't we? the youth of port dickson.. the bond have always been there. it's just that, it never did cross my mind that someday.. as soon as now.. u will be gone..
we went to church together.. share the same bunch of friends.. same school.. same whatsoever.. and funny, even with so many things in common, we were merely just acquaintance. every time we meet.. we would greet each other shyly and as though we've only met for the very first time..
i see u whenever u'd drive ur 3331 pajero to my house and call my brother out.. i see u whenever kun is back.. and we would hang out till the wee hours of the morning.. eating wan tan mee.. i see u whenever we travel back and forth subang with kun.. and how both u and kun would just crack me up big time and made me swear over and over again that you both were the most hilarious yet compatible pair of best friends i've ever come across.. i see u whenever we would hang out by the beach.. chilling and drinking.. and talking cock.. i see u whenever i hear the jay chow song that both u and kun kept raving about once upon a time.. i see u everywhere..... and always cos u're the closest friend to both my brother and my bestest friend. both very important person in my life...
and suddenly, you expect me to believe that you're gone?
i don't know why it hurts this much.. maybe u've become a favorite friend of mine sub consciously.. i dunno...
ever since i was admitted to the hospital, until today,i've been silently praying for u..... i thought we could both work our ways out.. i'm sorry that my body fails me jack.. which was why i didn't even have a proper chance to say goodbye...
i wish i could've been there for you... just like how u did when i had an accident months ago.. and cracked some stupid joke about morphin or something wtf.. i knew u were trying to make me feel better and it really did... and just like how u will always be there.. albeit in silence...
its only memories now... memories of how great of a friend u were, how funny of a joker u've always been... how everybody just loves to have u around... i know how devastated my brother had been... and how lost my best friend kun were for the past couple of days... this is how much you're loved jack, do u know?
deep down inside, i know u'd continue to live in our memories... and i know u will ALWAYS be there....
and FOR THAT, jack, just wanna say that you will be deeply missed...
Tian Leng's fav song at Youth Fellowship, which is also the theme song during the memorial service.
Where might you be going this fine day my friend? Off along an aimless road that soon must end Chasing an illusive dream that shines so fair But when found isn't there.
I can understand your weary sigh, my friend There but for the grace of God go I, my friend Come, and let Him lead you to your journey's end Oh, come along and walk with him.
If without the Grace of God your life should end And before the face of God you'd stand, my friend What would your illusive dream avail you then? So, come along and walk with Him.
Tian Leng, or more fondly known as Jack among his friends, was born on the 1st of February, 1986. With similar characteristics to the mythical dragon, Tian Leng, which means “Sky Dragon” in Chinese, was adventurous, always unpredictable, sometime uncontrollable, intelligent, trust-worthy and a strong protector of his family, friends and loved ones. I used to tell him, “you’re a sky dragon born in the year of tiger. You have a very strong name. You’ll do great things in future.”
Many of you wouldn’t know. But his favourite comics weren’t Superman, or Spiderman or any of those action heroes. He grew up reading Doraemon. He had a whole collection of them and sometimes, watched it on RTM 1, even in high school. He probably wouldn’t tell you because it’s not very cool. He was rather fat during his childhood days. Some aunties in PD town used to call him ‘tua pui’.
Maybe that was what prompted him to go on a diet. He used to starve himself with just tomato and cucumber sandwich for dinner. He was so determined, so much so that he lost so much weight and everyone had a shock.
That is Tian Leng. If he was passionate about something, he would buy magazines and books on that particular subject and master it. So for example when he was body-building himself, he bought tonnes of body-building magazines. He had posters of Bruce Lee and The Rock, and really thick autobiography of Arnold Schzernegger.
He and I fought a lot when we were young. I remember this one time where the fight got so bad, I slapped him and he punched me so hard in the stomach. Then we looked at each other for a few seconds, and we both started crying. As we are much older now, he was, still is, my best supporter in whatever that I do. He was always there for me without much question. The last event he helped me out with was 2-3 weeks ago. He did all of the heavy-lifting and asked me if he could use my things for his college events. He then said, "Eh, sis, event over liau yo. Let's celebrate" and brought 3 glasses of champagne. This is my one and only latest shot with him, celebrating with champagne after the event.
His first sport was sailing. But he wasn’t passionate about it. During that time, instead of breaking wind, he looked down into the water and searched for turtles and fishes. So, that led to his other passion – fishing. After dad bought him his first two wheeled bicycle, he would cycle off on his own around town with his fishing rod. Sometimes making new friends with old uncles sitting by the harbour in town. So from there, he learnt a few tricks or two about fishes and fishing. He was rebellious. I was told that it runs in the Khoo family. We never knew of his whereabouts but he was always home for dinner because that was the time that mom and dad would be home. He also took badminton lessons and swimming lessons, and represented school in these two sports. Tried tennis, but didn’t like it. He was already very enterprising even in primary school. Because of his interest in fishes, he would cycle alone to the pet shop. He would buy birds, and mark up a few cents and sold them to his friends. He then used the money to buy fish. His first pet fish died the second day. Then he bought a few more and they all died. But after many trials and error, his best pet the Arowana, grew into a beautiful fish, and he sold it after many years for about RM2,000. Among his many experiments, he also tried to rear birds, cats, hamsters, rooster and even goose. The goose was…a nightmare. He suggested snake thereafter and we put a stop to it! He was really the person to speak to if you wanted to open a pet shop. He grew up watching National Geographic and Discovery channel before football and ESPN took over.
He wasn’t the brightest student in class, but he was well known among his teachers because of his cheeky, playful yet lovable nature. There was one time, where Tian Leng got angry with a girl who apparently back-stabbed him. So he and his partner-in-crime, Wai Seng, put glue on her chair and she sat down on it. This was in high school. They were both severely punished by the discipline master. When my dad was called in by the discipline master; he also didn’t know whether to scold him or to laugh.
Finding a balance between studies, sports and curriculum, Tian Leng was also the Vice President of Leo Club, and represented PD high school in swimming, cycling and cross-country running. In college, he became active in football, futsal and basketball. I was told that he also played squash in Genting. So, I guess you can say that Jack is really Jack of all trades! Was that how he got his English name?
Last week, he was asking me about blogging and I referred some famous blog sites, such as kennysia.com and Patrick Teoh. Now, he has a blog site dedicated to him. It is very sweet of Kwek to start this blog as a tribute to his good friend. Thanks Kwek.
Tian Leng taught us all a few lessons. First, his departure is a lesson to us all that life is short, unpredictable, and definitely, not within our control no matter how fit, strong and healthy a person is. He told me he wanted to accompany me for my business trip to Sabah in January because he wanted to climb Mount Kinabalu with his Sabahan friends. We were planning for a family trip to Macau. Bought the tickets already. It is actually a family trip after many years and he was looking forward to it, researching about Macau’s attractions online. We were also planning for June June’s sweet 16 birthday this coming 27 December. He was also looking forward to completing his degree overseas, telling my mom that he might switch to Australia instead of Switzerland because that can help save some money. He admired Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong. Told me that one of his dreams is to set up his own hotel one day, some day. Just last week, while we were on our way back from KL, he told me that maybe being a politician sounds fun. “Talk bullshit and earn millions.”
See, we can plan as much as we want in life. But the moment you take life for granted, everything that you plan for becomes meaningless.
Tian Leng also showed us that life was meant to be lived to the fullest. He was never into winning medals or prizes or being the best, but whatever he did, he did it out of love and passion for it. He followed his heart and lived a meaningful life, and one that we can all be proud of. He also showed us that it is the imperfections of a person that makes him beautiful. He was someone who had many talents but never realise it. He gave in to temptations but was always aware of his mistakes, and openly admitted it when asked. He was always insecure about himself. His palms would get all sweaty if pretty girls spoke to him. Yet, his friends are so multi-racial and ranging from students more junior than him to seniors more senior than me, and uncles more senior than our dad. He was never the loud, live of a party kind of person but he lighted up the life of people around him with his silly jokes and goofy character. I keep thinking that the one person we need now in this situation is Tian Leng to just say something that is totally out of this world and crack us up.
For someone so physically strong, he had many fears too. He was afraid of ghosts. He was afraid of cockroaches. There was once I asked him to help me kill a cockroach in my room. The roach flew up and he ran out of the room swearing, then asked me to handle it myself coz he can’t handle flying roaches. He was afraid of being alone. So he constantly surrounded himself with friends. The only time you’d find him alone was… his ‘shitting’ time. He was afraid of heights. Life has many ironies and it is ironic that it was a fall from height that took his life.
He never saw himself as a sociable person. Yet, I look at all of his friends who turned up at the funeral and I would just like to say to him that he is the best PR guy I have ever known. He was a people person. He got along well with everyone. He was always real. He was not pretentious. What you see if what you get, unless of course, if he was trying to play a trick on you. He was good at that. Few weeks back, Tian Leng was telling me about how people only get famous after they die when he was relating the story about Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong’s funeral procession and about how much Genting staff and students were paid to attend his funeral. Tian Leng, at 21 years old, with no money or possessions, armed only with his humour, humbleness and good nature, is blessed with sincere friends and family, and in my personal opinion, Tian Leng, if you lived till 89 like Tan Sri, you would be more famous than him.
I would like to end with an sms message which Tian Leng sent to me some time back. In his message, which was sent out-of-the-blue, he said “Eventhough I don’t know how to express my feelings, I don’t show love to you all but deep down in my heart, I do love you all a lot! I know I don’t show care and concern about you all but deep down inside I do. It’s because we are brought up in a way that we keep everything in our heart. It’s like a saying empty vessels make the most noise because they don’t think before they talk. I’m quiet because I use that time to think. If you have any problems in life just give me a buzz. I will help you as much as I can. I am willing to sacrifice my life just for you all. You may think that I am dumb and naïve and narrow-minded but its’ this type of people that can be trusted. That can be counted on when you need them.”
We love you very much and we will miss you dearly. Rest in peace, our beloved son, brother and friend.
Try not to drive all those heavenly creatures and God crazy wit ur crazy stuff...bt i knw..ur making heaven a way more livelier place at dis moment...btw..dun use heavenly super glue to play a trick on God...i dun think those angels r gonna let u get away wit it..plus u need ur partners in crime 2 carry out de perfect plan..although i really do think u can do it by urself...dun go clippin wings or sewing hems tgtr..n pls..if there r such things as balconies in heaven, make sure de doors r close b4 u decide to go 'bare' dancing..hahahaaha...always tian leng..u wil be remembered...always...wit lots n lots of love...de memories u left behind r priceless..
those memories still seem so fresh, and i can almost remember the ups and down in our relationship. so visible, yet invisible now. i wish i could write them all, but just the thoughts of you in my every imagination keeps me smiling. i remember how you waited for my call all night long, just for an answer. Jack: hey, how la?can you be my gf? Me: dunnola. call me tomro morning then you'll know la. Jack: really ah? okok. i will call you k.
And true enough, you waited. and yes, i felt so much like your princess when you would suprise me with those lilies, the beautifully made coffee fragrance card, the well written valentine's card and the ever fav soft toy, patrick. never in my wildest dream could i imagine looking at those gifts with teary eyes everyday since you left. ......
i miss those random talks we had when we became friends after the breakup. how you would call me "kepo" when i asked of your new sweetheart. but always questioned me bout my life instead. like wai seng would call you, CNN Reporter. i was pretty suprised when hsieh may mentioned of your fear of darkness and ghosts for you have never mentioned those to me. now i think i know why. and so does kwek koko. hehe. that reminds me so much of our meet ups. scary but worth the try. i wouldnt trade that for anything.
those beautiful and wonderful time we had...... how i wish i could walk in the beach with you again, and to hang on the phone for endless hours. and the one thing i wish to say, is to apologise for what i've done you wrong. but those words are left unanswered. you are far gone now. thank you for the memories. they keep you alive, jack. always will be remembered.
i feel very happy 2day..cuz my family,relatives n close frens of tian leng went to set his ashes free into the sea.it was kinda funny along the way n we joked tat tian leng is lukin down upon us,havin a gud laugh at us.haha..
we're preety sure tis is wat he wans since he wishes to travel the world sumday..wel now he can..4 free summore ler!
the ocean is like a part of his life..he luves the sea..he luves the waters..may the waters bring him to whereva he may go.. now he can b wit his frens whu aint here in malaysia..he'l b all over the world in evry corner of the earth..
i noe the place whr he's goin he'l b hpy..no worries n i'm sure he'l b crackin his usual jokes to all the angels around the world n tellin him bout his loving family,sohai frens,n all his stupid jokes n tings tat he had done..
although we cant hear his macho voice,stupid jokes n his cackling laughter but we will remember it always..
i would like to share a sms tat he sent to my sister some time ago.
-even though i don know how to express my feelings i don show love to you all but deep down inside my heart i do love you all alot! i know i dont show care and concern bout u all but deep down inside i do..its because we are brought up in a way that we keep everything in our heart its like saying empty vessels make the most noise because they don think b4 dey talk.i'm quiet because i use that time to think.if you have any problem in life just give me a buzz..i will help you as much as i can...i am willing to sacrifice my life just for you all...you may think i am dumb and naive..narrow minded..but its this type of ppl tat can be trusted..tat can br counted on when you need them.
-with love,tian leng-
khoo tian leng,u hav been a fantastic person.we're very pround 2 hv u in our lives.u will owys b remembered in our hearts,soul n mind forever. we love you forever!! Muackz!!
Jack is not an average Joe.. let me share with you his dreams..
To be honest, I've had countless heart to heart talk with Jack for my whole life.. We'll just grab a few beers and some peanuts and we'll talk till morning. By the beach, that's where we spill everything.
Jack is a family person. He loves every member of his family to bits and used to tell me how much his mum loves him and how he hopes to repay her in the future. He knows it, although he doesn't really show it, but he always tells me how much he loves his mum. The person he admires most I know it's her sister, Hsieh May. He told me how he saw his sister develop herself into someone so successful and he is VERY proud of her. He used to tell me ... "saw that nigga, my sister got us to the jacky cheung concert! For thatttttt, we have to drink to celebrate". He looks up to you alot Hsieh May.
I remember him telling me how he was caught ehem watching xrated movies by his dad hahahaha and how he was in cemas mode. :) that was those funny moments. To me, he's very very respectful to his dad.. He used to tell me how he enjoys talking to his dad and how he stole his dad's salem and beers. And he shares the beers with me most of the time. I remember clearly how he said that he'll do his best to help out at the store and how his parents are working so hard to give him education.. he said he really admires uncle n aunty because they are always working hard to keep the store running.. He's grateful that everything that has been provided for him and he gets to live a comfortable life.
As for Jun Jun, he loves you the most. Remember the other day I told you the stories bout him telling me bout you? He is always worried bout you and he always tell me "eh i suspect jun jun got bf wei. how ahhh foul rite.?!" ah the great times:>
I always enjoy driving to and back from subang with Tian Leng. He's my official co-pilot. Whenever I drive back, he's there, most of the time. And we'll listen our favorite song, talk cock, sing ... talk bout life and all. I remember how he always brings back bags of groceries and always say 'eh take la, my mother give u wan." and I'll always end up with heaps of groceries:> what i'm trying to say is, Jack always puts his friends above himself. All the time. All the time.
I remember clearly as if it was yday... the day I hit my car against the divider.. he was the first to be there to help me out.. he stayed throughout the day and didnt even complaint of boredom because we were there at the station for ages. I remember how he always borrows money to his friends who were in need of help, while he himself only had barely enough.
Jack is always the peacemaker as well. Always when theres a war between friends, he's always the middle man to solve all the problems. I remember wai seng having problems n all with some friends. HAHAHAHHAHAH but still he sticks with him thru thick and thin. I believe he's the most "yao yi hei" guy that I've ever met. Never ffk me b4.. always an honest guy with very well kept promises. I love him man. Seriously I love him. I remember telling nee, how I'll definitely fall for him if I'm a girl. haha but its true.
He is definitely a Leader and a great team player. Thats why I always believe that he will make it big one day. I remember him asking me, how to be successful and all.. he was reading books form Robert Koyosaki erm.. and I remember telling him"why are u even worried jack, ur already half there! "everybody knows it, he's gonna make it big one day. He has the three biggest quality. VERY Lovable, teamplayer, and a great leader. What more do you ask for from such a fantastic individual? I call him the networker. He's the one who connects people, just like what Nokia did, he connected ppl from all around him to become as ONE. The uniter. Without him, everything goes haywire. I maybe older than him, but I certainly look up to him as my tai lou, my big bro. Don't think he's only made out of playfulness, whenever i needed advise, he's always giving me shockingly logical and mature advises. Words that only can uttered through a sincere heart, sincere individual who's there really to help you. Nothing else.
I'll continue the next part soon.. good night peeps, talk to u soon jack.
Dats the moto for our group n 1 of them who came up with the moto is our very own kukulengleng.
His last words to me when we met bout 2 weeks ago was "wei nigga i'm gonna open my restaurant when i finish next year n i wan u to become my exec chef".
I guess dat wont be happening anytime...he was the most hilarious n the most sohai n the most annoying 1 in the BC...but without him the BC is never complete..i guess this is just life god loves u more den we do...u will always b in our hearts....we love u very much bro n we will miss u very much....till we meet again..dun b a stranger nigga...
Thx nigga for all those nice memories.. alwiz have been a big brother to me.. rest in peace.. Don worry , i will surely meet u someday when my time comes.. till than .. Keep tat J for me ya ... Miss u .. luv ya..
Will always cherish all the unpredictable adventures that we had nig...thanx for always beeing there.u will always be remembered for the humorous and simple person u r, always trying to get and keep all old friends together...always remember what u said nigga chill and dont trip:)'peace n eternal happiness be with u...always luv ya bro...
Although I met him only a couple of times, when he worked with us at the Cathay Pacific office for a couple of days and the various concerts we attended, he surely did leave a lasting impression of guy with who had really good nature, was really cool, knew how to have fun and most importantly, one that loved his sister dearly. Condolences from me and hubby.
Nigga..remember or not sometimes when we were walking together..i would lay my arms on your shoulder...playing with your nipple with my fingers. then u always get horny when i do that.
Why la why la mus u go and jus leave. u know how it feels every time i read that? i sent u a song man. that's our song..
Maybe that was what prompted him to go on a diet. He used to starve himself with just tomato and cucumber sandwich for dinner. He was so determined, so much so that he lost so much weight and everyone had a shock.
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